A Convo With K.

I was told to post this.....
I guess this nigga gotta have a say in it all too.
Somehow he thinks this will..hlp me se clearer"
Personaly I think the nigga still sleep
Just sleep talking.

Half sleep... with the look of what the fuck on his face
With tears in my eyes and just drained from trying to prove myself yet again to another person on this earth that I care.. but can't fake the funk like they want me to...

He said words to me that made the most sense.

K said: You were most happy when she was around....her decision is her decision
but if she knew anything about you....she would have known you wouldn't take this
laying down. Everything you feel is right.. along with everyone else feelings.. no one is wrong and thats the madness about this. However...Candice you don't take alot of shit from many... and a cold heart will do that. Warm up and think it.

Warm up?
Seems like everyone I tend to trust.. somehow...
let's me down.This is like....a cycle... I think someone is this way.. expect this and that from them.. and WHAM! Road block.... never to recover fast.
Took 3 years for me and Reese to talk about shit.
I have zero tolerance. I know I'm wrong for it. Dead wrong about it too.
I hurt niggas I love after they laugh or make me out to be the fucking dummy/asshole.
Yeah I do that...
but when I beleive something....
with all my heart K...
You should know by now...I can't bend easy....its a trait given from my grandmother.
A good and bad one.
See I see things for what they are and can be.... not for what I wanna see it as.
If it's black and white.. why the fuck would I attempt to point out colors?!?

Sometimes i give to much of me

K: Sometimes you don't give enough

But when I give it my all and find it back in my face then what?

K: Well then you either leave or.. stay..... ya choice.

But what happens when people don't wanna let you be with that. They way YOU can handle it?

K: Just like they made a decision... they will have to accept yours in the long run.

And if they don't?

K: Then I guess they are just as wrong as you then and need to think again about that before coming to you in hopes to change ya mind. People are cretures of habits and if they are used to certain things then other things taht make sense to tohers really wouldn't to them. Just like you hate cinnamon flavored anything... I love that shit you hate it.. you accept that I like it and taht you hate it...vice versa.. thats how most issues in life must be resolved.. its not just a one way thing.. it must be both ways or nothing will settle on solid ground

Nigga...

K:Nah don't nigga me... just real talk. Now who read this blog?

The main suspects.

K: is that X link?

Yes

K: X you remember me? If not... I'll slap you sideways with a troll and then throw pickle juice on ya nipple while leaving you butt naked in the forest.
And if you didn't know who I was then.. you should know now :)


X....
I'm sorry he told me to make sure I leave that part there.
:(