Love And Unhappiness

Question was asked

Him: How hard is it personally for you to get over the one you gave your heart to?

Me: Depends on how much of myself I really gave to that person. You don't just give your heart in most cases...

See think about it...

How long did it take for you to give that person whatever you gave them of you?

Now if you gave your heart along with your soul you are fighting a tough battle back normalcy because these are emotional and spiritual ties that bond you and another together for the duration of your relationship.

Hold up I might be speaking chinese to some right now so lemme break it down for the slow or lost.

There are 4 things we give of ourselves to another person during relationships.

In these 4 ways we form bonds with our partner.

To give one of the four to anyone that walks this earth means that you are now bonded in this way until the tie has been broken.

To break that tie will mean to break what bonds you together from the source of it all.

Here goes the 4...(in my view)

Mind/Mental: Some of us connect mentally before anything. Although this is normally the last bond to give fully its also the easiest bond to break and regain for self because nothing is stronger than the mind. The act of reasoning will reason above any emotional, spiritual or physical bond because if you really want to do something ...its nothing to it once your minds to it.


Remember that


Body/Physical: This physical bond is normally given early in relationships.

THE NOOKIES!
*ahem*

Normally its ruled by the heart and all the emotions that go with it BUT with better judgement the body will ignore emotional pull and simply hold strong with the mind. Most fling type relationships use and abuse this bond. Still mind over matter always wins. You get tired and eventually you move on.
Again..this reinforces the above statement of the mind.

Heart/Emotional: They say love conquers all. False. A complete love with all four essential parts holding together strong will conquer all. Needless to say the heart is the emotional bond that many of us suffer from. This bond is not as easy to break but when broken its the most liberating feeling on earth or...can cause you to fold into a little ball. Ice cream and vent session and some new underwear can help get you through this one...oh and maybe calling that person out they name a few times.

Soul/Spiritual:
*sigh*

Its greater than just loving someone.
Its being so in love with someone your soul becomes intune with each other.
This bond..comes rare and also the is strongest and most painful bond to break.
A spiritual bond cannot be denied it can only be ignored. And even then sometimes the calling to from another's soul can be heard in the back of your mind.
And you slowly die...inside.

It rules out every other bond there is.
Its the alpha and omega of relationships.
This is an unbreakable bond.

However...if mind, body and heart cannot take the strain of this bond then you are able to pull away and salvage whatever of you is left...but understand that this bond..will never die and you will never be the same.

Now back to his question...

How long will it take?

Well...now considering everything I said...

How much did you give?

...

New Year.

Hi

I'm Candice.

You might know me a bit from last years up and down rollercoaster ride of finding myself between trying to love someone and holding onto much of my past.

Yeah you know me pretty darn well then from last year.

Wasn't that pretty fun to watch?

You know what's going to be cooler?

This years Candice.

Let me update you a bit.


Moved back to Flatbush.
Got new job.
Got another kitty! (His name is Osiris and he's a sexy cat)
Fell back in lust or love or whatever you wanna call it with Maurice (His first name hidden because of the nosey)
And now slowly falling out of that due to emotional strain and whatnots.
Was hospitalized and found out that I had cyst on my ovaries (explaining why I was sick all the time)
And this was all in the first month of 09


Yeah this year finna be a blast.

Join me!

I Voted

I got up and went to vote sometime around 2.
Had to go back to Eny to vote because when I registered that was the address that I signed everything up under. I wore my favorite blue sweater, some dunks, blue jeans, and a grey tee with the words Protect nature. I was greeted by a very nice older woman who showed me how to votem she stood in the booth with me and helped me pick some people (aside from Obama because there was no fucking way in hell I would vote for McCain old rooty tooty ass) but we spoke of the importance of this day and how great its going to be to tell our children this story. I took a pic of my vote and pulled the big red lever to cast it....


I elected Obama

The first black president.

Im Going Home Again...

Flatbush

I've missed you more than you know
And after some months being without you
I'm going home again!

Beef paties and shopping areas
Rastas and fast walking chicks
Mango man
The damn Q train
Dollar vans
Tmobile store

Man you name it I've missed it
Ooooo
Ooooooo and
Hair suplly stores
Omg
Fucking hair supply stores
Dude do you know its like heaven to know I can run out and get some weave

Damn

If that's not sexy
I dunno what is

Amusement

Hmmmm my thoughts well its a little something along the lines of
"make money more money oooh money"
type shit mixed with a
"niggas better get right with God before they fuck with me"
type shit sprinkled with
"lord I sense another crush happening all over again"

Yeah I've been a busy thinker in between breaks and sleep as of late.

My comp sucks ass
And I'm in the process of getting a new place
Because this one sucks ass and I'm pretty sure that others know this....

But yeah its pretty much been calm on the home front my quest has been achieved because I'm no longer looking for a road

I'm making one

I thinks its best I make a road instead of walking paths others traveled

And the peace of mind feels good might I add...

Yeah its a great Monday morning w my blueberry muffin smelling all kinds of sexy and the thought of a poem for my muse in the back of my head

Speaking on muses

Yeah I think I might have a new one
But
I'm scared to use him because well I dunno he's like hella warped and such and I love it but I don't want things to become funny or sour in anyway
I dunno maybe I worry way too much
And
Then again maybe I don't worry enough.

Internet Lockdown

Yeah.. I'm locking down on the net right about now. I will not be around to watch yall and your wild antics that tend to transpire.
I shall be out and about and away.
Need me?
Ask Cat how to contact me or call me yaself. Other than that.. I'm off!

Ya Fat Fuck!

Listen nothing against the big boys
but I be fucking damned just because I'm a big bitch...
yall finna think this fat bitch want a fat nigga.

Nah a nigga thats stocky... like solid thick
that damn he like a brick house type dudes...
I've always been in love with..
not the niggas with all the cuts type
but the chicks know the ones I'm talking about...
yall cool with me...

but yall nassy ass
blobs of massive proportions with no form of shape what so ever looking like
a set of discombobulated tires stacked high

yall sicken me so....

yall always wanna be in my FUCKING FACE SMELLING LIKE A PACK OF HOTLINKS
talking about I'm sexy

If you dont keep ya ole rolly polly humpty dumpty I'm just fat because I got a gland problem and was smaller once but never really was small sitting on a love seat looking like a loveseat two seats in the movie theater taking shake and bake loving deep fried apple eating diet coke drinking I'm trying to watch my figure yet only watching it get wider ass
out my face

I'm going to one day tell you about yourself.
Real fucking talk.
I mean ok you fat I get it.. but don't think just because I'm fat I want someone fatter than me on top of me trying to fuck and sucking up all the fucking air in the damn room.

Can I please breathe?

Nah yall always wanna try that "You hating on ya own kind" BULLSHIT!

No nigga I'm not..
what I'm saying is that you shouldn't be 100 bls fatter than me talking about I'm going to blow ya back out.

Nigga you wouldn't even get pass the fucking foreplay... because you would collapse from a heart attack or rupture a lung from all the damn excitement.

Yes I'm not a small chick myself and that some men will feel the same way about me
hence why I stay in my lane and not even TRY to be in EVERY CUTE NIGGA FACE BECAUSE I know that I'm not everyone preference.
I'm confidant but not stupid and everyone
not comfy with fat asses SO WHY WILL I TRY TO FORCE IT ON SOMEONE?
That shit is not cool.. yet.... still...you fat fucks try me on all the wrong days.
learn from this blog please... there are other women like me...
and they may not be as nice to warn you.


Candice.