Yo... I never went to this club everyone claims is so bad and ish due to the fact it was in the hood. So ok... it was 10 bucks for a party that will not end till 6 in the morning. I mean think about it.. it's NYC an its Labor Day weekend... 10bucks for a party that's getting broadcast on the radio.
So we get in there and its not that many people yet.. (it's 12) and I'm introduced to Nen's friends. I met one before.... the others no... but one that caught my eyes was this sexy Trini man with long dreds... it this his name was Kevin. Still in here his name will be Sexy Trini Man.
So I'm cursing him because he is Trini and they are like kyptonite to my soul.. and he... got me :( Man he was like a ninja... as soon as I thought I was safe...he would pop up with them sexy ass hips and tear my ass up. GOD! It was aswesome.. Dancing with everyone and having fun. I didn't drink because I was already drinking fro mthe day before so I was like still in a zone.
It was wall to wall antics... people smoking filling the club with weed smoke.. drink getting spilled and ghetto... partly dressed hoes.
I mean really when I can see the line where ya booty cheeks meet.... its a little to short of a dress girl. Then on top of that.... these chicks weren't even getting danced with. I was a little shocked you would think niggas would wanna dance with them.. nah... they left them alone.
Overall.. best party I ever when to for Labor Day... I came home to my bed and smiles.
Yo Sexy Trini man must be seen not drunk so I can get the full effect for him. I think I wanna be he friend. He pretty!
lol.
Sunday, August 31, 2008
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Pussy Galore & Dredlock Yankers!
So... let me say this
Madame X is a sexy lil place that if you wanted to take ya man and just relax.... this would be that intimate 3rd date type thing. Red lights, black walls , couches, good priced drinks... yeah... this would be that place for you to go.
Get the Pussy Galore!
Its a drink that taste fucking awesome... probably that only good pussy I'll ever know about. Even the guys wanted some ( go figure) but nah those things were fucking awesome.
Ok... so we are at Anthonine's quiting party... nothing to wild just everyone coming in after work/ school/ from home. to this little lounge and chilling, talking & mingling... so ok... we eat.. we mingle... and everything is smooth.
"Sexy brother" (Nene's new interest) come through and chills... to only be scared off by someone that goes by the name of Betty!
Dun dun dun!
She tried to yank his new twisted dreds :( without asking.
*sigh*
Scared that poor boy off because by the time ran to give Nene her phone ole boy was out the door.
*hands head*
You know there is just something about touching people hair that mofos need to understand.. YOU JUST DONT TOUCH SOMEONE HAIR LIKE TAT MAN!
Wtf!
Meanwhile other than that it was a awesome day and now me and Nene are going to plan a bday party! Yay!
Go us!
Friday, August 22, 2008
My Story
I told you I was no good.
I was just another chick...another girl in this world
wandering.. trying to fin my own way...still searching.
Hmmm...I told you I was no good.
Like no good in the way where I rot out brains
Funny.. cause candy rots teeth.. go figure huh?
I never wanted to hurt you at all...but I knew me
and I knew that one day like always I would hurt you to the point where you will forever hate me and everything that I was...
Yeah I know it hurts... painful burning and shit like that.
But you was not a saint kid. So stop it...
Stop with the whole tears down cheeks I'm forever lost without you act because you really not lost without and shouldn't be if you were found in the first place.
I'm sorry... really..
No matter how much I say it though it don't matter right?
Yeah I know I'm not bleeding fro the heart publicly enough for you to really see that I'm sorry so hey... I'm a bitch for that..
Let me be that then...
I'll be this bad guy for as long as you want for me to be...
maybe one day you can see that I did care and still care even still think about you but the problem is.. we
are not meant to be anything more than friends and we proved that. You want more.. need more.. .require much more but hey I can't give you that right now because I'm not willing to try again. I'm not willing to act like a lover towards you knowing I can't do it kid.... really....
but you can't see that so hey... its whatever.
I was just another chick...another girl in this world
wandering.. trying to fin my own way...still searching.
Hmmm...I told you I was no good.
Like no good in the way where I rot out brains
Funny.. cause candy rots teeth.. go figure huh?
I never wanted to hurt you at all...but I knew me
and I knew that one day like always I would hurt you to the point where you will forever hate me and everything that I was...
Yeah I know it hurts... painful burning and shit like that.
But you was not a saint kid. So stop it...
Stop with the whole tears down cheeks I'm forever lost without you act because you really not lost without and shouldn't be if you were found in the first place.
I'm sorry... really..
No matter how much I say it though it don't matter right?
Yeah I know I'm not bleeding fro the heart publicly enough for you to really see that I'm sorry so hey... I'm a bitch for that..
Let me be that then...
I'll be this bad guy for as long as you want for me to be...
maybe one day you can see that I did care and still care even still think about you but the problem is.. we
are not meant to be anything more than friends and we proved that. You want more.. need more.. .require much more but hey I can't give you that right now because I'm not willing to try again. I'm not willing to act like a lover towards you knowing I can't do it kid.... really....
but you can't see that so hey... its whatever.
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Hard Ass...Yeah I Know.
Some results from a test that I took that was in Clara's blog... goshers...
It saying I'm hard ass.... eh.... don't I know it already though. Watch some asshole sit at the screen and think they preaching the gospel in the results.. even up taking the test themselves and be shown their true colors.. and not like the results one bit. :)
Meanwhile.. read it... its so on point though.
Your result for The LONG Scientific Personality Test ...
ESTJ-The Supervisor
You scored 64% I to E, 58% N to S, 81% F to T, and 26% J to P!
Your type is known as the supervisor, as you are not hesitant to give your stamp of approval on others - or tell them how they are lacking if they are. You are surprised when others don't seem grateful that you have set them straight. Your type also belongs to the larger group called guardians. Experience is what matters to you, not experimentation or conjecture. You often take a lead role in the many groups and organizations you belong to. You worry a great deal about society falling apart, morality degrading, and what the world is coming to. You share your personality type with 10% of the population.
As a romantic partner, you communicate very clearly your strong opinions so your partner always knows where they stand. You are dependable, responsible, and rock solid. You can be rather infexible about giving up any control and insist on keeping a schedule, although you have great energy and enthusiam for planned adventures. You have difficulty seeing other's points of view and your biggest downfall in a relationship is dismissing your partner's feelings as illogical. You feel most appreciated for being trustworthy, efficient, and productive. You wish to be thanked tangibly for the ways you keep your lives on track.
Your group summary: Guardians (SJ)
Your Type Summary: ESTJ
and another one....
Your result for The Perception Personality Image Test ...
HBPS - The Optimist
Humanity, Background, Big Picture, and Shape
HBPS - The Optimist
You perceive the world with particular attention to humanity. You focus on the hidden treasures of life (the background) and how that fits into the larger picture. You are also particularly drawn towards the shapes around you. Because of the value you place on humanity, you tend to seek out other people and get energized by being around others. You like to ponder ideas and imagine the many possibilities of your life without worrying about the details or specifics. You are in tune with all that is around you and understand your life as part of a larger whole. You prefer a structured environment within which to live and you like things to be predictable.
So I'm a hardassed optimist...
yeah sounds like a oxymoron to me...
Your result for The Best Personality Type for You Test by ...
ENFP - The Champion
You scored 100 I versus E, 20 N versus S, 40 F versus T, and 40 J versus P!
Your ideal mate is known as the champion. As a romantic partner, they need to talk about what is going on in their lives. They are strong supporters for their partner's efforts to grow and change and be happy. They need to feel that same support from their partners. Expressive, optimistic, and curious, they are eager to enjoy new experiences with their partners, whom they wish to be their confidant and soul mate, as well as play mate. They are uncomfortable sharing negative emotion, though, and tend to withdraw from confrontation and process their feelings privately. They feel most loved when their partner appreciates their creativity, accepts their uniqueness, and sees them as the compassionate person they are. They need to hear their partner tell them how much they mean to you and would love if you did thoughtful spontaneous things to demonstrate it.
It saying I'm hard ass.... eh.... don't I know it already though. Watch some asshole sit at the screen and think they preaching the gospel in the results.. even up taking the test themselves and be shown their true colors.. and not like the results one bit. :)
Meanwhile.. read it... its so on point though.
Your result for The LONG Scientific Personality Test ...
ESTJ-The Supervisor
You scored 64% I to E, 58% N to S, 81% F to T, and 26% J to P!
Your type is known as the supervisor, as you are not hesitant to give your stamp of approval on others - or tell them how they are lacking if they are. You are surprised when others don't seem grateful that you have set them straight. Your type also belongs to the larger group called guardians. Experience is what matters to you, not experimentation or conjecture. You often take a lead role in the many groups and organizations you belong to. You worry a great deal about society falling apart, morality degrading, and what the world is coming to. You share your personality type with 10% of the population.
As a romantic partner, you communicate very clearly your strong opinions so your partner always knows where they stand. You are dependable, responsible, and rock solid. You can be rather infexible about giving up any control and insist on keeping a schedule, although you have great energy and enthusiam for planned adventures. You have difficulty seeing other's points of view and your biggest downfall in a relationship is dismissing your partner's feelings as illogical. You feel most appreciated for being trustworthy, efficient, and productive. You wish to be thanked tangibly for the ways you keep your lives on track.
Your group summary: Guardians (SJ)
Your Type Summary: ESTJ
and another one....
Your result for The Perception Personality Image Test ...
HBPS - The Optimist
Humanity, Background, Big Picture, and Shape
HBPS - The Optimist
You perceive the world with particular attention to humanity. You focus on the hidden treasures of life (the background) and how that fits into the larger picture. You are also particularly drawn towards the shapes around you. Because of the value you place on humanity, you tend to seek out other people and get energized by being around others. You like to ponder ideas and imagine the many possibilities of your life without worrying about the details or specifics. You are in tune with all that is around you and understand your life as part of a larger whole. You prefer a structured environment within which to live and you like things to be predictable.
So I'm a hardassed optimist...
yeah sounds like a oxymoron to me...
Your result for The Best Personality Type for You Test by ...
ENFP - The Champion
You scored 100 I versus E, 20 N versus S, 40 F versus T, and 40 J versus P!
Your ideal mate is known as the champion. As a romantic partner, they need to talk about what is going on in their lives. They are strong supporters for their partner's efforts to grow and change and be happy. They need to feel that same support from their partners. Expressive, optimistic, and curious, they are eager to enjoy new experiences with their partners, whom they wish to be their confidant and soul mate, as well as play mate. They are uncomfortable sharing negative emotion, though, and tend to withdraw from confrontation and process their feelings privately. They feel most loved when their partner appreciates their creativity, accepts their uniqueness, and sees them as the compassionate person they are. They need to hear their partner tell them how much they mean to you and would love if you did thoughtful spontaneous things to demonstrate it.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
The Beach.
I went to the beach.
Alone... by choice.
I could have had people with me but something told me go alone.
This was the reason...
While sitting on the shore watching the tide come back and fourth washing over my feet... hearing children at play laughing and giggling... watch adults become kids again.. and old people hold hands walking along semi wet sand...
I didn't feel a void of being alone...
Infact I found another piece to my happiness puzzle...
See sometimes you just gotta do for you to make yourself happy.
Not be guilt into thinking you are selfish because you are not sharing every aspect of life with another.. but to have certain things that you do... that identifies you as you.
Ok I get the whole.. mesh as one to become something stronger than what you were alone and apart.. but there are things that you will do alone that will keep you grounded.. .not allowing you to lose yourself in everything thats going on...
you are still you... but working as a unit.
So as I jumped in the water and made some beach buddies I was me.
Just me.. loving my day out in the world
And no longer feeling alone.
Yups... yall see that.. thats a step towards happiness :)
Alone... by choice.
I could have had people with me but something told me go alone.
This was the reason...
While sitting on the shore watching the tide come back and fourth washing over my feet... hearing children at play laughing and giggling... watch adults become kids again.. and old people hold hands walking along semi wet sand...
I didn't feel a void of being alone...
Infact I found another piece to my happiness puzzle...
See sometimes you just gotta do for you to make yourself happy.
Not be guilt into thinking you are selfish because you are not sharing every aspect of life with another.. but to have certain things that you do... that identifies you as you.
Ok I get the whole.. mesh as one to become something stronger than what you were alone and apart.. but there are things that you will do alone that will keep you grounded.. .not allowing you to lose yourself in everything thats going on...
you are still you... but working as a unit.
So as I jumped in the water and made some beach buddies I was me.
Just me.. loving my day out in the world
And no longer feeling alone.
Yups... yall see that.. thats a step towards happiness :)
My Weekend.
Yeah should have been wrote this but I knew that there was one more event I would have that should go with this post right here... so I waiting.
Now on Sat... I met up with Valentine, Clara, and LaToya.
All from the poetry site... to chill and meet and greet for Clara's bday week.
Seems like even in person.. we al were pretty much chill and cracking jokes.
All went to BBQ place on Broadway, ate, drank, and spoke about somethings.. and cleared some air between us all...after all you can't be eating next to someone and not wanna make sure that yall understand each other.
Or in Clara's words : The 4 families conversed and decided to make peace.
lol.
Well that was not the end of it. we took a wild ride to BK
Clara was a cougar on the prowl, Val was hiding from people, and Toya was sitting next to the cute guy who I think could have been a tab bit gay... but he was still cute though with his matching ass! lmbao. But during this time Clara had other plans
Trevor!
ctfu... she wants to find a man named Trevor.... dred head to be exact because she has big bad bumbaclot pussyhole for him!
So we went to a block party which was cool... Val friend Tiny taught Clara how to wind...we danced laughed and then smoked...and made sure there will never be talks again about the sweat crotch pictures...lol.
Clara got her beef patty / coco bread and we all took some pictures.
I mean it was a chill day...
and I thank Clara and Toya for wanting to hang out w/ us.
Hey yall didn't get the Brenda treatment... simply because.. yall were real
and not some fake chicks smiling.
Yo on record... Toya gets the niggas though.. fyi! lmbao.
Now on Sat... I met up with Valentine, Clara, and LaToya.
All from the poetry site... to chill and meet and greet for Clara's bday week.
Seems like even in person.. we al were pretty much chill and cracking jokes.
All went to BBQ place on Broadway, ate, drank, and spoke about somethings.. and cleared some air between us all...after all you can't be eating next to someone and not wanna make sure that yall understand each other.
Or in Clara's words : The 4 families conversed and decided to make peace.
lol.
Well that was not the end of it. we took a wild ride to BK
Clara was a cougar on the prowl, Val was hiding from people, and Toya was sitting next to the cute guy who I think could have been a tab bit gay... but he was still cute though with his matching ass! lmbao. But during this time Clara had other plans
Trevor!
ctfu... she wants to find a man named Trevor.... dred head to be exact because she has big bad bumbaclot pussyhole for him!
So we went to a block party which was cool... Val friend Tiny taught Clara how to wind...we danced laughed and then smoked...and made sure there will never be talks again about the sweat crotch pictures...lol.
Clara got her beef patty / coco bread and we all took some pictures.
I mean it was a chill day...
and I thank Clara and Toya for wanting to hang out w/ us.
Hey yall didn't get the Brenda treatment... simply because.. yall were real
and not some fake chicks smiling.
Yo on record... Toya gets the niggas though.. fyi! lmbao.
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Well....
After another convo where yet again...
old news being rehashed and dealt with..
I'm left with a headache and just...
needing my peace to come back fast...
I shouldn't have agreed to speak but maybe this will be the last time that I have to attempt to explain things
that are still being unheard and ignored...
I can no longer attempt to speak and prove I loved him in any form of way...
Even my sorries don't count.. i guess they are not being said in the way you want them... but for whatever it is.. I'm sorry for breaking your heart.
and will continue to feel some sort of way about it.. .which is a reason why I just want peace...
I 'wishing for it but somehow because you are still bitter about everything you are unwilling to just drop things and accept it for what it is... and its ok.. ill be around when you ready....
Look... we had something... still something...
but I have to be true to me and if I know that even though t th love is there
I' not in love with you... love you.. but not in love with you
My heart doesn't cry anytime I get a slight feel of longing..
I'm not smiling at just thinking about the small little things that you do
No I'm not more than willing to give myself to you and trust that things will be ok
because you are that man that will handle biz
I can't give my all to someone who I know I'm not going to continue to be faithful to.
I will cheat....
and keep doing it because there is a void that need to be filled...
could be filled by just living for self... new adventures.. or maybe someone else...
but I do know that whatever it is....
whatever may happen....
I refuse to go back to everything just because you feel you have no peace with things.... I'm still dealing with alot of my own issues and things that are wrong with me...
but no longer seeking acceptance by you nor the conform into whatever it is that you cal a relationship....
Really....
whatever it is... like it be....
let it be.....
just let it....
old news being rehashed and dealt with..
I'm left with a headache and just...
needing my peace to come back fast...
I shouldn't have agreed to speak but maybe this will be the last time that I have to attempt to explain things
that are still being unheard and ignored...
I can no longer attempt to speak and prove I loved him in any form of way...
Even my sorries don't count.. i guess they are not being said in the way you want them... but for whatever it is.. I'm sorry for breaking your heart.
and will continue to feel some sort of way about it.. .which is a reason why I just want peace...
I 'wishing for it but somehow because you are still bitter about everything you are unwilling to just drop things and accept it for what it is... and its ok.. ill be around when you ready....
Look... we had something... still something...
but I have to be true to me and if I know that even though t th love is there
I' not in love with you... love you.. but not in love with you
My heart doesn't cry anytime I get a slight feel of longing..
I'm not smiling at just thinking about the small little things that you do
No I'm not more than willing to give myself to you and trust that things will be ok
because you are that man that will handle biz
I can't give my all to someone who I know I'm not going to continue to be faithful to.
I will cheat....
and keep doing it because there is a void that need to be filled...
could be filled by just living for self... new adventures.. or maybe someone else...
but I do know that whatever it is....
whatever may happen....
I refuse to go back to everything just because you feel you have no peace with things.... I'm still dealing with alot of my own issues and things that are wrong with me...
but no longer seeking acceptance by you nor the conform into whatever it is that you cal a relationship....
Really....
whatever it is... like it be....
let it be.....
just let it....
Flirtatious C
So.. I like to flirt alot. Thats been me.
sometimes I get myself into trouble though because lord knows... people really don't get that I'm not trying to be with them or new boo type shit.
But then ... when I am on that mission people could never tell because I'm a flirt anyways... so it's like a double edged sword.
Sucks ass.
Lemme give yall another thought...
Why the fuck you talk to a nigga about 3 mouths ago and they randomly call you up like HEY! I'm LIKE HUH? They like HEY! I'm like the fuck?!? O_o?
Trust that shit happens to me all the time.. but then again...
I tend to ig my phone alot when random numbers pop up on muh phone.
Sigh*
Hmmmmm.....
What about those dudes you know you shouldn't even think about fucking with... yet you do..
bag em up and play with fire..
lord the thrill... I think the whole.. lets get to know each other just excites us... (well me) and then after that .... I guess they lose th freshness to em..... some don't though! Some stay around and are really cool... for convo.. but other than that....
I should only be thinking about convo with dudes... a relationship can be in the works right about nhow... I gotta fix self first before alldat!
sometimes I get myself into trouble though because lord knows... people really don't get that I'm not trying to be with them or new boo type shit.
But then ... when I am on that mission people could never tell because I'm a flirt anyways... so it's like a double edged sword.
Sucks ass.
Lemme give yall another thought...
Why the fuck you talk to a nigga about 3 mouths ago and they randomly call you up like HEY! I'm LIKE HUH? They like HEY! I'm like the fuck?!? O_o?
Trust that shit happens to me all the time.. but then again...
I tend to ig my phone alot when random numbers pop up on muh phone.
Sigh*
Hmmmmm.....
What about those dudes you know you shouldn't even think about fucking with... yet you do..
bag em up and play with fire..
lord the thrill... I think the whole.. lets get to know each other just excites us... (well me) and then after that .... I guess they lose th freshness to em..... some don't though! Some stay around and are really cool... for convo.. but other than that....
I should only be thinking about convo with dudes... a relationship can be in the works right about nhow... I gotta fix self first before alldat!
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Mind Made Up.
Listen to Marvin playing slowly along with this blog.
You heard what he said in the beginning.
I was loving you
I was really loving you baby
Still in love with you baby
It's a fact that even when I say your name my heart tens to flutter and shift a bit more than most.
*sigh*
I woke this morning and thought you were here with me...
but you wasn't...
I was holding myself again.
On this quest for happiness I see you yet again in the pathway...
this time.. instead of going around you and avoiding what could be...
I'm giving up. Not really giving up in a bad way but giving into my heart and finally learning to love fully... because for some reason with noone else can I be that adorable big eyed little brat with sugar kisses and hugs..
Just don't feel right....they don't hold me the way you have
They just don't cut it.. even though I can love them ... want to be with them and all...
still.. because of my undecided heart... me and another can't get anywhere if I'm still thinking and loving you.
Still some ho he wants to be here...
knowing...I can't love him...
and this will be over faster than he knows it.
I was told that I changed.. I used to love hard and keep my brick wall up.
But as of late I've been cold hearted.. distant.. unwilling to love.. emotionless (more than ever) and many other things.
These past years changed me and may not be for the better but this is who I am.
Although I mellow out alot more that before.. not sounding all g'd up.. and I act more like a lady now.
Yo I even wear heels a bit more these days.
(I know you finna be like WOW)
i STIL HAVE MY J'S THOUGH!
I've been many things you wouldn't even imagine kid... nor thought i had the heart to be.
I'm not saying ya name and some things have been altered in this blog because there are people looking but I'm sure when you read this...you will know it's for you.
But.. soon I'll be loving you.. that is when you return
and still be willing.
You heard what he said in the beginning.
I was loving you
I was really loving you baby
Still in love with you baby
It's a fact that even when I say your name my heart tens to flutter and shift a bit more than most.
*sigh*
I woke this morning and thought you were here with me...
but you wasn't...
I was holding myself again.
On this quest for happiness I see you yet again in the pathway...
this time.. instead of going around you and avoiding what could be...
I'm giving up. Not really giving up in a bad way but giving into my heart and finally learning to love fully... because for some reason with noone else can I be that adorable big eyed little brat with sugar kisses and hugs..
Just don't feel right....they don't hold me the way you have
They just don't cut it.. even though I can love them ... want to be with them and all...
still.. because of my undecided heart... me and another can't get anywhere if I'm still thinking and loving you.
Still some ho he wants to be here...
knowing...I can't love him...
and this will be over faster than he knows it.
I was told that I changed.. I used to love hard and keep my brick wall up.
But as of late I've been cold hearted.. distant.. unwilling to love.. emotionless (more than ever) and many other things.
These past years changed me and may not be for the better but this is who I am.
Although I mellow out alot more that before.. not sounding all g'd up.. and I act more like a lady now.
Yo I even wear heels a bit more these days.
(I know you finna be like WOW)
i STIL HAVE MY J'S THOUGH!
I've been many things you wouldn't even imagine kid... nor thought i had the heart to be.
I'm not saying ya name and some things have been altered in this blog because there are people looking but I'm sure when you read this...you will know it's for you.
But.. soon I'll be loving you.. that is when you return
and still be willing.
Jill Scott.
first let me say that she's all woman.
And a real woman at that.
Her concert was great man she really sung her ass off and I'm sure anyone that know me when she did Crown Royal Suite.... I damn there died.
Man she sung that shit and had the guitar laying and shit damn a bitch was like so ready to go on home make phone call and give him the biznuss! Lol... its was a great concert.. she ended it on such a soft ad touching note( after we called her back out 2 for encore) - an she came back out to- but she performed a song she hasn't recored yet.. and was a little afraid to do it.
Thats where I witnessed....
she's just another normal person with a great voice who loves this.
So she started to sing the song and.. very emotional...
but she sung it... buy the end.. she was smiling clapping and feeling so god with tears in eyes because all of Brooklyn was singing this song back to her.
I was touched and misty eyed myself.. she has such a pretty smile.
She sung Golden. He loves me. Long walk. Crown royal. It's love and many more hits that people loved.. did tracks off the new album also...but she didn't do My Love though... kinda good though because then i would have been in tears like my ass was at the Badu concert when she sung Otherside Of The Game....
And yall know I hate to cry....
Oh... and shit... to hear Jill Scott sing a pretty pretty Fuck You to the haters was not bad at ALL!
Jill... you have my heart and ears as always.
And a real woman at that.
Her concert was great man she really sung her ass off and I'm sure anyone that know me when she did Crown Royal Suite.... I damn there died.
Man she sung that shit and had the guitar laying and shit damn a bitch was like so ready to go on home make phone call and give him the biznuss! Lol... its was a great concert.. she ended it on such a soft ad touching note( after we called her back out 2 for encore) - an she came back out to- but she performed a song she hasn't recored yet.. and was a little afraid to do it.
Thats where I witnessed....
she's just another normal person with a great voice who loves this.
So she started to sing the song and.. very emotional...
but she sung it... buy the end.. she was smiling clapping and feeling so god with tears in eyes because all of Brooklyn was singing this song back to her.
I was touched and misty eyed myself.. she has such a pretty smile.
She sung Golden. He loves me. Long walk. Crown royal. It's love and many more hits that people loved.. did tracks off the new album also...but she didn't do My Love though... kinda good though because then i would have been in tears like my ass was at the Badu concert when she sung Otherside Of The Game....
And yall know I hate to cry....
Oh... and shit... to hear Jill Scott sing a pretty pretty Fuck You to the haters was not bad at ALL!
Jill... you have my heart and ears as always.
In The Pursuit Of Happiness (Continued)
I'm on that path.
There are people around me now that I trust way more. People who love me for me.
They know my life not the greatest and know about my heath and all that shit but.. they still love me and wouldn't change me for the world.
I think when you really understand that you have power to change but become ok with who you are you gain an ounce more of that sunshine within you. So... I'm going to stop the whole stay to myself thing.. .I'm going out with those who have known me and know I should be around family and in a loving environment instead of being anti social me.
It's about time I fly again..
putting emotion baggage don't and not feel responsible for it.. allows you to enjoy so much...
I'm going to the beach later on this week just to chill out and not do nothing more than writ something. Alone. But... at peace.
I attempted last night to understand something thats in that past.
Something that was causing unhappiness. but I thoughts about it.... why go back to whatever it was that was making me unhappy.
Talking about it.. got me nowhere due to unwillingnesses to listen and fronts so
fuck it...
I gotta do me and live for me.. not everyone else.
I gotta another story on that but .. .thats the next blog.
Live.Life.Love.
There are people around me now that I trust way more. People who love me for me.
They know my life not the greatest and know about my heath and all that shit but.. they still love me and wouldn't change me for the world.
I think when you really understand that you have power to change but become ok with who you are you gain an ounce more of that sunshine within you. So... I'm going to stop the whole stay to myself thing.. .I'm going out with those who have known me and know I should be around family and in a loving environment instead of being anti social me.
It's about time I fly again..
putting emotion baggage don't and not feel responsible for it.. allows you to enjoy so much...
I'm going to the beach later on this week just to chill out and not do nothing more than writ something. Alone. But... at peace.
I attempted last night to understand something thats in that past.
Something that was causing unhappiness. but I thoughts about it.... why go back to whatever it was that was making me unhappy.
Talking about it.. got me nowhere due to unwillingnesses to listen and fronts so
fuck it...
I gotta do me and live for me.. not everyone else.
I gotta another story on that but .. .thats the next blog.
Live.Life.Love.
Monday, August 11, 2008
Normal Much?
So I was told because I keep some of the MANY ex's I have as friends.. who I talk to and check up on every now and then as a friend... or someone to just have a good convo with.... I was not normal.
Reginald, Steve, and Barry this one is for you.
Its seems that even though I could chill with these guys who I've done fuckd sucked and all that jazz with ... and not think of one sexual act that I would want to perform... still even being in contact with these gays is WRONG.
According to the normal radar.
So I ask this.. what's ever really normal?
Reginald was something like high school fling but then grew into this cute puppy like love.. still.. today I speak o him every now and then check on him and chilled with him recent. We are still much in tune.. but know its not right and won't work.. so a friend will be the title we give this. Still.. I can't imagine me doing this dude every again because he's not who my heart desire.
Then we have Steve. .i mean I talk to the kid..not much though because... well thats another story)but I would never date him in my life ever again nor share that same emotion I did when I was younger I thinking it was nothing more than lust. Still a hello will be passed and we go on our merry way.
Barry.... o the bajan man... love him like something good cooked at home.. but we are not going to ever be together again. We know this.. matter fact he's engaged and to be wed next year. We still crazy and open with each other but its a good friend yo thats my nigga type thing.
I hope I see his ass on the parkway though.
NIGGA I BETTER SEE YA LITTLE ASS!
*taps foot*
what do they all have in common?
The fact that they accept this shit and keep it fucking moving.
Not ho,ding onto that past but was just happy to know me.. and notice how much better as friend we work than as a unit of one.
So.... its not normal enough for ya huh?
See... I came to grips with the fact that my life.. is not normal.. but it works and keeps me happy.. so fuck what the other think... I mean really think about a crackhead.. you know she a crackhead.. she know it too.. not right for her but hey guess what.. she not finna change that aspect of life about her until SHE see its fitting.. she's happy.. and i think thats all that matters to her right about now.
I can't change who I am nor that company i keep because of what others think are not the norm.
They don't live my life and I'm very sure there are things about them that are not normal that I would frown upon but at the end of the day.. you gotta live ya life.
Live it the way to see it as right.
it's just that simple to me.. but maybe I'm just wrong.. with my happiness.
I don't think you understand that my life is all about me. Call it selfish.. but I was unhappy because I wasn't selfish enough to be true to self. Instead I played the whole lemme try role. Nah....
Maybe you just wrong for telling me how to live as if I was you...as if I was a normal chick to begin with? I think I really haven't made myself clear.
Maybe ... nothing should really be said at all as long as its not effecting you personally..
or maybe it does effects you personally and you just can't handle that you may seem secnd best to the rest. Then that would mean insucurties are flaring and proves yet again.
I shouldn't be fucking with you in th first place.
Reginald, Steve, and Barry this one is for you.
Its seems that even though I could chill with these guys who I've done fuckd sucked and all that jazz with ... and not think of one sexual act that I would want to perform... still even being in contact with these gays is WRONG.
According to the normal radar.
So I ask this.. what's ever really normal?
Reginald was something like high school fling but then grew into this cute puppy like love.. still.. today I speak o him every now and then check on him and chilled with him recent. We are still much in tune.. but know its not right and won't work.. so a friend will be the title we give this. Still.. I can't imagine me doing this dude every again because he's not who my heart desire.
Then we have Steve. .i mean I talk to the kid..not much though because... well thats another story)but I would never date him in my life ever again nor share that same emotion I did when I was younger I thinking it was nothing more than lust. Still a hello will be passed and we go on our merry way.
Barry.... o the bajan man... love him like something good cooked at home.. but we are not going to ever be together again. We know this.. matter fact he's engaged and to be wed next year. We still crazy and open with each other but its a good friend yo thats my nigga type thing.
I hope I see his ass on the parkway though.
NIGGA I BETTER SEE YA LITTLE ASS!
*taps foot*
what do they all have in common?
The fact that they accept this shit and keep it fucking moving.
Not ho,ding onto that past but was just happy to know me.. and notice how much better as friend we work than as a unit of one.
So.... its not normal enough for ya huh?
See... I came to grips with the fact that my life.. is not normal.. but it works and keeps me happy.. so fuck what the other think... I mean really think about a crackhead.. you know she a crackhead.. she know it too.. not right for her but hey guess what.. she not finna change that aspect of life about her until SHE see its fitting.. she's happy.. and i think thats all that matters to her right about now.
I can't change who I am nor that company i keep because of what others think are not the norm.
They don't live my life and I'm very sure there are things about them that are not normal that I would frown upon but at the end of the day.. you gotta live ya life.
Live it the way to see it as right.
it's just that simple to me.. but maybe I'm just wrong.. with my happiness.
I don't think you understand that my life is all about me. Call it selfish.. but I was unhappy because I wasn't selfish enough to be true to self. Instead I played the whole lemme try role. Nah....
Maybe you just wrong for telling me how to live as if I was you...as if I was a normal chick to begin with? I think I really haven't made myself clear.
Maybe ... nothing should really be said at all as long as its not effecting you personally..
or maybe it does effects you personally and you just can't handle that you may seem secnd best to the rest. Then that would mean insucurties are flaring and proves yet again.
I shouldn't be fucking with you in th first place.
Thursday, August 7, 2008
Eve..Evil..Live...Hmmmmm...
So this will be like part 2 to my other blog that I wrote.
I survived the period from hell people...
I live to tell you these thoughts
Eve was one evil bitch.
Nah think about this...
thats sassy little bitch went on the other side of the garden
start talking to snakes and shit
listens to that creepy ass nigga
pick apples and not even bite t yet
she convince this nigga Adam to bite it first..
then she bit it.
Ain't this motherfucker a trifling ass bitch?
And yall wonder why we suffer every month for 7 days
Bleed for 7 days and not die...
son... WHAT OTHER BREED YOU KNOW BLEED FOR 7 DAYS AND NOT DIE!
Man... yall telling me this shit was not a curse sent from God
some magical painful twisted flaw of our way of life.
Then..we gotta give birth too!
The day I get to heaven... I'm getting kicked out..
I'ma punch Eve in her evil ass ovaries and make her feel the pain.
playing this song while stomping her ass out.
Damn bitch.
I survived the period from hell people...
I live to tell you these thoughts
Eve was one evil bitch.
Nah think about this...
thats sassy little bitch went on the other side of the garden
start talking to snakes and shit
listens to that creepy ass nigga
pick apples and not even bite t yet
she convince this nigga Adam to bite it first..
then she bit it.
Ain't this motherfucker a trifling ass bitch?
And yall wonder why we suffer every month for 7 days
Bleed for 7 days and not die...
son... WHAT OTHER BREED YOU KNOW BLEED FOR 7 DAYS AND NOT DIE!
Man... yall telling me this shit was not a curse sent from God
some magical painful twisted flaw of our way of life.
Then..we gotta give birth too!
The day I get to heaven... I'm getting kicked out..
I'ma punch Eve in her evil ass ovaries and make her feel the pain.
playing this song while stomping her ass out.
Damn bitch.
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Ms. Badu Took Me To Church.
So i went to the Erykah Badu concert yesterday at Wingate Park. Last time I was there I was there for Lauren Hill's....
Let me tell yall a little something about Ms. Badu....
She in her own right is a God at performing. It not just a concert . It's an experience. She has this power to move you from ya seat to ya feet and sing on top of lung off key and not give a fucking shit. Have you bonding with the people next ti you and you don't even know them. She is amazing.
Me Anthonine and some friends sat there front row singing and almost in tears when she sung certain songs.... yall should know.. I Want You and Otherside of the Game was my shit. When she got to Otherside of the Game.....tears rolled down my cheeks singing every word I don't know what that woman did but I thank her right now....
Because at the very moment sitting there enjoying my moment..
I felt inner happiness.
I found out its not who you with that makes you happy
It's what you do for self to make self happy.
I recorded some of the songs and god moments from my phone...
I'll upload them...
Her back... you.. that woman's back was so fucking fierce!
I mean she would turn her back the crowd and dance you in was like DAMN YA BACK SEXY!
Lol... NeeNeen tryna figure how to get a back like that now..lol.
But overall... one of the best concerts I've been to and hey I even got to touch her and she came past the crowd signing :)
Fun fun fun :)
Let me tell yall a little something about Ms. Badu....
She in her own right is a God at performing. It not just a concert . It's an experience. She has this power to move you from ya seat to ya feet and sing on top of lung off key and not give a fucking shit. Have you bonding with the people next ti you and you don't even know them. She is amazing.
Me Anthonine and some friends sat there front row singing and almost in tears when she sung certain songs.... yall should know.. I Want You and Otherside of the Game was my shit. When she got to Otherside of the Game.....tears rolled down my cheeks singing every word I don't know what that woman did but I thank her right now....
Because at the very moment sitting there enjoying my moment..
I felt inner happiness.
I found out its not who you with that makes you happy
It's what you do for self to make self happy.
I recorded some of the songs and god moments from my phone...
I'll upload them...
Her back... you.. that woman's back was so fucking fierce!
I mean she would turn her back the crowd and dance you in was like DAMN YA BACK SEXY!
Lol... NeeNeen tryna figure how to get a back like that now..lol.
But overall... one of the best concerts I've been to and hey I even got to touch her and she came past the crowd signing :)
Fun fun fun :)
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