I Woke Up Today And Thought About....

I woke up today...just to notice..you were no longer there.
Damn.
I mean to just know that you are no where around anymore kinda got me in a slump. Kinda like...messed up and shit. I mean remember the days we would wake up with each other and toss a pillow or two. Blah. Let me stop thinking about you.


So on the the next person to think about. Why did we drift apart YET AGAIN? lol. It's as if we have a 4 months life span. We talk we giggle we get back to where we were last time...and then...we you go handle your life biz and I'm left behind to just wonder yet again....why? It's one of the great wonders in my life. You know I'm talking about ya ass too shawty.


Then he...came to mind..him.
The one who took my heart and shattered it to bits.
Son of a fucking bitch I fucking hate you so much ...so why do I want you near?
I mean I've NEVER had it that bad. Like I hate this dude...I really do...but I fucking love him so much I just want him to hold me and drift of to sleep in his arms. But he can't do that.
Why? Well lets just say another bitch is there in that spot I want. Nawl let me not talk about this anymore.


Then you came to mind and I was lost as to why? Nigga I dunno you like that. I wondered why would all of the past words be so hard to say to you. Why was ALL OF THAT needed? hmmmm.. I dunno how o call this one so i'll just sit back and chill on that note.
And after these thoughts escaped my head.....
I went to go brush my teeth.