Boooooooooooooo!

I found a gray kitty...
and then lost her :(
she belongs to the other floor.. that sucks ass cheeks!
ughs in a box.
I want a kitty!
My bday coming.. .who finna buy it for me?!?
im dead ass yo.. who finna buy me a smoke gray kitten..
female.. so i can play with her :(
pouts!

It Is What It Is

I was
I am
more than just another face in the crowd.
I'm something and everything you wouldn't want me to be and can't really believe that I am. I'm also anything that those who I love would want me to be to a certain degree until I'm too fucking hot to even cool myself down and I boil over with emotions and claims to hate everything that you have tried to make me to be.

Understand...
since birth odds have been against me...
Granny said fight back and drop kick the shit outta luck because pride and the will to fight is th only way you are going to make it in this lifetime. And well shit I've been trying hard to run about NY an get mine and make moves to be better and become everything she said I would be but how the fuck can I be me with pole who claim they care and love me for me yet can't understand half the shit I do?

This means you too (for my loved ones who reading)

Shit I've been Candice before any of you
And shall be Candice after an not a motherfucker on earth will change that about ME.
But sometimes I get tired of the constant struggle and just need a soul who can really understand me...

understand me..like...this is who she is and will be forever and all I can do is love her... all of her.. not just parts...

But my wishes seems to go ignored as I continue to allow those who love me the most hurt me in many ways at different times damaging whatever god I hold in my heart

and for some reason
they are always trying to bring me down....

Bacon Bitches!

So today I ordered a pizza. A large two topping bacon and pepperoni pie for the homies and shit...thinking well this is going to taste awesome and not cost much.
Would you believe this shit cost 20 bucks.. for one fucking 10 sliced pizza.
In Brooklyn....
Get this. just to add bacon to a pepperoni pie. cost 8 bucks
WHAT THE FUCK?
Man I swore to God that bacon better had made a bitch nutt three times to be that expensive as a topping to add bacon a fucking pizza.
Motherfucking bacon son?
bacon?

Man... and that shit was good but I be damned they catch me with that shit again.
fucking bullshit...

Which led to a thought that was discussed amongst the fam:
It's a sin to be a woman and not know how to cook bacon...
and if you don't know how to cook bacon..
you will indeed..
lose your man.


And this was agreed upon by about 4 dudes while us chicks are looking at these fool like wtf?

Is bacon that important to men?

Answer: YEAH!

Dude: Yo you burn some bacon in the presence of a man and watch tears fail down cheeks. It's fucking blasphemy man!

Dude 2: Yo.. man a bitch cook some good bacon with some eggs and toast in the morning.. she finna be wifey... lord knows the way to a man heart is through the swine cooked mighty fine.


Motherfucking bacon ladies and gents.
Bacon...
makes the world go round.

Empty Promises

Something I could never really handle.
People promising this and talking it all up...
making things seems better than what they are.
Telling you what they think you wanna hear.. even though all you wanna hear is the truth. Why do people find it so hard to tell me whats really going on?
Promises.. being empty but so full of bullshit.
I think that its worst when that person is still somewhat around me.. and making those same promises to others is what gets me even more.
Sometimes I wonder what about me make people wanna lie to me.
Is it that I tend to wanna think most things are ok?
Is it something to do with the high levels of stress I already deal with?
Maybe its because if they lie and I don't pick up on it... my walls are down... allowing that person to come and go as they please.
Sometimes I wanna shoot the person who even gave the thought of a promise in the first place.. but then again I would have to take that up with God.


Try this:
Tell the truth.
Although you my never wanna hurt anyones feelings... they could never expect more from you if you are real with them. let them know what you feel and keep it moving. Playing freeze tag with someones emotions.. just not cool. If they can't respect you for telling them the truth and nothing but it... then I guess they really can't fuck wit ha real people and would rather deal with the fake.
Thats a sad thing to say about some of these folks but it is what it is at the end of the day.