Internet Lockdown

Yeah.. I'm locking down on the net right about now. I will not be around to watch yall and your wild antics that tend to transpire.
I shall be out and about and away.
Need me?
Ask Cat how to contact me or call me yaself. Other than that.. I'm off!

Ya Fat Fuck!

Listen nothing against the big boys
but I be fucking damned just because I'm a big bitch...
yall finna think this fat bitch want a fat nigga.

Nah a nigga thats stocky... like solid thick
that damn he like a brick house type dudes...
I've always been in love with..
not the niggas with all the cuts type
but the chicks know the ones I'm talking about...
yall cool with me...

but yall nassy ass
blobs of massive proportions with no form of shape what so ever looking like
a set of discombobulated tires stacked high

yall sicken me so....

yall always wanna be in my FUCKING FACE SMELLING LIKE A PACK OF HOTLINKS
talking about I'm sexy

If you dont keep ya ole rolly polly humpty dumpty I'm just fat because I got a gland problem and was smaller once but never really was small sitting on a love seat looking like a loveseat two seats in the movie theater taking shake and bake loving deep fried apple eating diet coke drinking I'm trying to watch my figure yet only watching it get wider ass
out my face

I'm going to one day tell you about yourself.
Real fucking talk.
I mean ok you fat I get it.. but don't think just because I'm fat I want someone fatter than me on top of me trying to fuck and sucking up all the fucking air in the damn room.

Can I please breathe?

Nah yall always wanna try that "You hating on ya own kind" BULLSHIT!

No nigga I'm not..
what I'm saying is that you shouldn't be 100 bls fatter than me talking about I'm going to blow ya back out.

Nigga you wouldn't even get pass the fucking foreplay... because you would collapse from a heart attack or rupture a lung from all the damn excitement.

Yes I'm not a small chick myself and that some men will feel the same way about me
hence why I stay in my lane and not even TRY to be in EVERY CUTE NIGGA FACE BECAUSE I know that I'm not everyone preference.
I'm confidant but not stupid and everyone
not comfy with fat asses SO WHY WILL I TRY TO FORCE IT ON SOMEONE?
That shit is not cool.. yet.... still...you fat fucks try me on all the wrong days.
learn from this blog please... there are other women like me...
and they may not be as nice to warn you.


Candice.

I Um...Miss You

I know its just something off beat and out there to say to you but I um.. miss you kid.
like really it's like something missing... a part of me just somewhere out there. Nah not in the you are a part of me and we are one thoughts but in the damn someone I generally care about is away and darn it I miss that guy

that guy...

with the great convo that makes me smile from time to time showing me that even in the eve of disaster rainbow tend to break through clouds every now and then.

Yeah I miss you and still play "that" song everyday because hey.
It's dope!
And well I miss you and hope that everything is fine and that you are safe.

Meanwhile enough of this mushy type stuff.


http://www.gspoetry.com/thinking-emotions-poems-262753.html

Stale[mate]?

Sometimes we need to cool it.
Sometimes even when we want for someone to get what we think should come to them RIGHT NOW we can't force it.

But we try...
and because we try
we play a hand in the Devil's grand design to continue to spread misery and pain.
I know that I have done it countless times and this is a trait that I'm trying to annihilate but how can you really see that there is a problem f you think its not a problem?

Ok.. granted I'm all for trying to do a nigga in after I'm wronged and yeah niggas play games to show out
but where does the games end?

What about the parties involved?
The emotions stirred. he tears cried... the sorrys said.. the hate brewed


what the fuck is i all for when in the end shit finna fall apart anyways
and no one really ends up being the winner.

What happens when there's a silent checkmate?

A checkmate neither players are even willing to admit.
No more pawns.rooks. nothing.
King and Queen
face to face

now technically the Queen would win with some power moves but we are talking about an actual relationship yo... so don't even think of claiming a victory... but anyways

where the victory in making sure someone get's whats coming to them before the time is right?

What if by you putting all the effort in shit indeed change fate
and place a bounty on your happiness?

I'll leave it on that note till I come back to this thought.

Even When I Away.....

Blog was removed due to new information stating nothing was to involve me.
I will only hope thats the truth.
And will say nothing more.

I Took A Walk

Went on some interviews today and decided as a New Yorker it's only right that I take a walk over the bridge once. You know just take a walk and clear my head over the bridge and just enjoy the view I normally look at through train car windows. So I tok this walk with my head high and feeling pretty darn good about myself.

It's a nice walk.

I noticed a woman walking by with a 9-11 shirt on... her head hung low and look like she was crying a bit. Didn't bother to ask because while I'm just happy to walk and be alive.. she walking in the name of a fallen soul.

Damn... crazy right?


Meanwhile..
I saw this old lady today and though about my grandmother. She had a presence about her.. a gentle soul... you can tel she was a mother of at least more than 2 kids because the way she glowed. Very polite and even noticed that I fell asleep on the bus and made sure to wake me before my stop. I thanked her kindly. You don't find people like that everyday...

I wonder if my granny told her to wake me.

Catalina!!! Memo Of Geighness.

So I'ma need yall to understand that the other working half of the
law and order crew.. Catalina....is over there geighing it all up!
when I mean gay.. its so gay it need to be spelled different to geigh to elongate the geigh part about it.
Over there dancing in rain drop and shit.
Ole I'ma sit in the grass and pic flowers playing he loves me he love me not ass chick.

HOW WERE SUPPOSE TO BE PIMPING DOING SUCH NONSENSE LIKE THIS?!?

HOW CAT?

Why Cat.. why....man.... this not right.. and I'm sorry that I have to do this publicly but I must take your card back.

Yes the cane too... you are a sad excuse for a pimp these days loving these "hos"
and ish.. its reckless and us pimps don't condone such behavior.


Therefore it pains me much to say... your playa card has been revoked.

*cuts Cat's card up*

I'm very sure you know the procedure to attain this card again but please this time....
TRY TO KEEP IT FOR MORE THAN 2 WEEKS YOU FOOL I BE DAMNED I HAVE TO DO THIS SHIT TO YOU AGAIN!

Thank you.

Geighlord.

The 11th Huh?

It's the 11th...
a day in history
that niggas won't even let scared families try to forget.

They dwell and drag out the horror
that people had to go through.

They continue to play clips of people jumping out of buildings
trying to find a way to live
only to jump to their death unwillingly.

Mass media using fear as tactics
to remind use that we are never really safe
within our own doors because our government are pussies
playing hide and fuck it we gave up seeking for Osama.

We found oil.
Fuck lives that paid cost higher than current gas prices.

Yes it's the 11th.
Yet again I'm reminded of the burned flesh smell
lingering within black clouds of doom.

Yes.
It's the 11th.
Yet again I'm reminded that my heart
dropped down faster than the towers crumbled
thinking I would never see my father ever again

Thinking...
i'd never see my father again

Praying...
wishing to run into the streets
being held back by security guards
trying to secure me

Secure me?

SECURE?!?

How can we be secure
if planes can be hijacked
in mid air
crashed into twin giants
and successfully bring a whole country
to a stand still?

It's the 11th
Yeah same day where birthday wishes for
a friend became funeral for her mother

The 11th
Where brave firefighters who sacrificed lungs
now cough up blood because HMO act just like that


homo


Yeah it's the 11th today...

So I'm not listening to the radio
nor turning on my TV

I'm calling my father to tell him I love him
yet again
and then


and then



continuing living...

Peacefully.

I was playing this song...
thought about something you said and cracked a smile
randomly just thinking about little things

See little things matter the most to me.
Men don't normally get that though...

Just noticing small changes within me or about me
show that you are showing a great deal of interest
and thats something that always a plus to me
even thought i don't think I really interest you much like that
but it's cute to think of it randomly ya know
like a little gift given to me that I can use over an over for smiles
and pick me ups when my day seems a bit off.

Yeah...
it's a nice thing that you do kid.
I only wish I could provide you with that same feeling every now and then
I would be so proud and happy.

Maybe I do and you just don't tell me because you are some secretive
in the shadows type dude wishing to play it cool
trying to figure my complex crazy ass out

maybe I just don't and need to work harder at letting you know
that as a friend...
I wanna make this more of a give and take type thing
giving you that feeling that i get anytime context clues
are left around for me like specially made Candice bread crumbs
i wanna leave you some bread crumbs too :(
because
you make me smile
& thats something that comes pretty rare
but then again you are a rare breed
so what else could I really expect.

Hmmmm..... you might read this...
then again you might not...
still nice for me to get this out of my system and go on about my day
humming that song and breathing peacefully.

Iysis....My Big Ass Cat...

I just wana share something with yall people.


My cat name is Iysis.
She's pretty much a thug.
The bitch sits on my fucking keyboard and pushes shit
Doesn't like the look of her litter box but uses it...
and damn there fucked up the male cat from upstairs
She likes to try to sit on my fucking head
and refuses eat her tuna right now
and has also attacked my vodka bottle....
I think she trying to tell me something
:(

I swear.. she's a bitch....
but I love her though!

[insert heart]


Yeah shes a fucking thug son.....
And this bitch took over my computer area...
there fore now I must relocate my comp....
because Iysis has marked her territory.
She's pretty much more bad ass then most you fuckers.


Pics to come soon.

Oh Hips Hurt [Labor Day]

So today was the holiday Candice loves to celebrate.

And its was ok.
I mean every year now they find another way to ruin ya mood but hey... its the biggest parade in the city.... they hate hard!

So ok I got drunk and was taking pics.. dancing up the road and shit... ran into some sexy men...and not so sexy men... ctfu.

Niggas had motherfucking paint and smearing it onto each others bodies and shit. Man I just don't get it!

I was waiting for the Hot97 float.....


and guess what every other float was blah...
aint that a bitch...

it was alot less floats this year also.

Ok so... we get to the Hot97 float and BAM pushing and shit because the damn Haitian and the Jamaicans are fight for room.. since they kept stopping floats and shit.
So after watching Nene shake and shimmy all over the Haitian float we made way to Movado and them.... niggas had the fucking place hype.I ran into me ex Reggie.. and found out my lover can ACTUALLY DANCE..... man I was like WTF! *slaps head* He was the best dance I had the whole time... maybe is because we knew each other and all.. or maybe because he knows how to move.. i dunno but FUCK it was nice. We were good for a while till someone was random pinching Nene's butt for no reason (mind you at this time we were in the back just walking0 and she spazzed on a nigga! ctfu!

Next event was not a funny one... someone pulled out a gun.. didn't shoot though.
Still nigas got so shook everyone stampede over the barricades. I lost Nene by this time and had to thug it out for self.

After that it was all peace and love and good tunes and random dances with more black men.

awesome I tell you people...

always awesome to end summer with a bang....
just not one to ya dome.

lol.


Goodbye Summer :(

Pic soon come.

Rant: WHY THE FUCK WAS THE BAJAN TRUCK SO FUCKING WACK AND WE HAD KROSFYAH ON IT?

BARBADOS

GET ON YA FUCKING JOB AND GET RUPEE HIGH YELLOW SEXY BAJAN ASS BACK ON THE FUCKING FLOAT BEFORE I COME KILL YALL NAGGERS.

IM NOT PLAYING!