This bitch.
I'm like
"Ayo son...what should I write about tonight?"
"How I date nice and successful guys"
"Bitch...them niggas end up bitches or some lame with money...talk no action"
"Atleast they have money. You date broke people"
"Leo not broke doe"
"99 pecent were broke"
"Atleast they had character"
Now...how are we best buds?
Crazy how I think of a man's personality before anything else.
Crazy how in many cases I've been the one to walk away thought.
is there every a day where I'm the one being walked out on.
The answer is yes.
The key to Candice isn't a hard one.
But it seems many fail.
1...be real to me and I will be real to you
2 talk to me about anything
3 your humor is what got me .....keep it
4 becoming a new person will make me walk away
5 never....ever...stand down on something you should stand up for
6 do not play dumb when you KNOW what it is
these are the basic things I need from a man.
Why can't you men get it right?
Friday, September 21, 2007
I Fucking Hate You
Now.
To really be blunt.
I fucking hate your guts right about now.
Al I did was show you attention...and tried to be there for you.
I know I'm not an easy woman.....but the shit you did was foul and we all know that.
But after it...you acted as if it was nothing to you.
Not a fight outta you...nothing.
I gave hope into something that was never to even be thought of...and had it handed back into my face.
You fucking stupid cunt.
I pray you erase my number and any other memory of me...because I really hope those bitches you wanna tell the same story to...will get lost into it and fall on they as.
You were right...you could never be happy.
Why?
Because you don't know how to keep a good thing until it's gone.
Maybe if I was someone else .....I would have recieved text...email...phone calls and all....but I guess I'm not her huh?
Fuck you and die.
I really would like you to finally succeed at taking your own life this time.
Now....you fucked up.
To really be blunt.
I fucking hate your guts right about now.
Al I did was show you attention...and tried to be there for you.
I know I'm not an easy woman.....but the shit you did was foul and we all know that.
But after it...you acted as if it was nothing to you.
Not a fight outta you...nothing.
I gave hope into something that was never to even be thought of...and had it handed back into my face.
You fucking stupid cunt.
I pray you erase my number and any other memory of me...because I really hope those bitches you wanna tell the same story to...will get lost into it and fall on they as.
You were right...you could never be happy.
Why?
Because you don't know how to keep a good thing until it's gone.
Maybe if I was someone else .....I would have recieved text...email...phone calls and all....but I guess I'm not her huh?
Fuck you and die.
I really would like you to finally succeed at taking your own life this time.
Now....you fucked up.
The Downfall Of My Addiction
I've been using this drug for months
And now no effect
No change
No happiness
No joy
Just empty thoughts and harsh reality
Something isn't right.....
Now thinking that it was a faze I upped the dosage
Took mass amounts with one swallow
I was brave
Yet not a single ounce of escape for me
Dear lord what the hell have I done
I look in the mirror and can't tell who it is
Cleaned the mirror and still can barely find myself
Bags under my eyes
Hair is unmade
And my only thought is for another hit
Just a touch off that good ish
That overseas right to my door hit a chick in the head and see stars type ish
I begin to tear through the house
Looking for something to give in exchange for you
Old photos of us smiling
Teddy bears you won for me
A movie stub from the first date
The blood soaked t-shit from when you struck me down
The condom you used on that girl last night
I forgive you baby
where the hell will I find another supplier?
When will I feel once again?
Just give me a damn hit
Please
Just another hit
And now no effect
No change
No happiness
No joy
Just empty thoughts and harsh reality
Something isn't right.....
Now thinking that it was a faze I upped the dosage
Took mass amounts with one swallow
I was brave
Yet not a single ounce of escape for me
Dear lord what the hell have I done
I look in the mirror and can't tell who it is
Cleaned the mirror and still can barely find myself
Bags under my eyes
Hair is unmade
And my only thought is for another hit
Just a touch off that good ish
That overseas right to my door hit a chick in the head and see stars type ish
I begin to tear through the house
Looking for something to give in exchange for you
Old photos of us smiling
Teddy bears you won for me
A movie stub from the first date
The blood soaked t-shit from when you struck me down
The condom you used on that girl last night
I forgive you baby
where the hell will I find another supplier?
When will I feel once again?
Just give me a damn hit
Please
Just another hit
Confession Of A Cheating Husband ( Night 2)
Her soft hands engulfed into mine
Naked laying face to face
Touching her body as if it was (HERS)
Na this is isn't (HER) body
And thats the reason why I'm treating this one so nice
A movie playing in the distance but we are not watching it
We are about to star in our on script
My lips toured all over her breast
Her hands grabbing my erection
I forgot how she does that
Damn
Come back to earth and handle her
Legs spread
Her moans growing louder
My named called
As hips were gripped
Ass was slapped
She begged for me
More.
Back was scratched
Evidence was left
Who cares.
She rode the waves of her desire
And I sat back and enjoyed the ride
Pre cum made
And kitten was still at it
Phone call missed.
Now the finale
Clit danced against my lips
Insert it because I'm about to blow
Operation complete
Pussy dismantled because she has that all familiar grin
Her hair tossed around
Phone call missed again.
And her eyes then seen it again
The promise made before God.
Damn.
Naked laying face to face
Touching her body as if it was (HERS)
Na this is isn't (HER) body
And thats the reason why I'm treating this one so nice
A movie playing in the distance but we are not watching it
We are about to star in our on script
My lips toured all over her breast
Her hands grabbing my erection
I forgot how she does that
Damn
Come back to earth and handle her
Legs spread
Her moans growing louder
My named called
As hips were gripped
Ass was slapped
She begged for me
More.
Back was scratched
Evidence was left
Who cares.
She rode the waves of her desire
And I sat back and enjoyed the ride
Pre cum made
And kitten was still at it
Phone call missed.
Now the finale
Clit danced against my lips
Insert it because I'm about to blow
Operation complete
Pussy dismantled because she has that all familiar grin
Her hair tossed around
Phone call missed again.
And her eyes then seen it again
The promise made before God.
Damn.
Confession Of A Cheating Husband ( Night 1)
Her bright eyes invaded my dreams again
Once again awaking in my own sweat
Her giggles echoed through my chest
And my heart held onto the last kiss we shared
Never can I forget this dark beauty
No woman after will take control of this King
And turn him into the putty she can with one flick of her tongue
The flesh upon her frame is sweeter than the finest honey
For this woman was more than just another girl
How could I once again turn my back to her
And not let my hands slide down to embrace the small of her back
As I enter her from behind my kitten will purr for me yet again
And one commandment will be broken
Nervous
For she was the sun in my sky
The clouds would part like Moses did the sea
And just like he did she walked right into my life
Yet again
Those round hips and soft lips called me
This young beauty was more than full grown
She was the WIFE
The wife that was not ready
Enough about that past because before my eyes
Lay my young beauty , the future holds a certain place for her
I shall lay my body upon her and we will make love over and over
Her round ass in the air and my mouth searching for her pleasure zone
Take me all dear like the stallion you were built after
I expect nothing less than an all star performance from such a star that has keep me tossing and turning all these long nights
And when the sun rise and the rays touch down on this carpet floor
It will reveal that my marriage no long consist of a we
It will become me, her and you
My true love
Once again awaking in my own sweat
Her giggles echoed through my chest
And my heart held onto the last kiss we shared
Never can I forget this dark beauty
No woman after will take control of this King
And turn him into the putty she can with one flick of her tongue
The flesh upon her frame is sweeter than the finest honey
For this woman was more than just another girl
How could I once again turn my back to her
And not let my hands slide down to embrace the small of her back
As I enter her from behind my kitten will purr for me yet again
And one commandment will be broken
Nervous
For she was the sun in my sky
The clouds would part like Moses did the sea
And just like he did she walked right into my life
Yet again
Those round hips and soft lips called me
This young beauty was more than full grown
She was the WIFE
The wife that was not ready
Enough about that past because before my eyes
Lay my young beauty , the future holds a certain place for her
I shall lay my body upon her and we will make love over and over
Her round ass in the air and my mouth searching for her pleasure zone
Take me all dear like the stallion you were built after
I expect nothing less than an all star performance from such a star that has keep me tossing and turning all these long nights
And when the sun rise and the rays touch down on this carpet floor
It will reveal that my marriage no long consist of a we
It will become me, her and you
My true love
Confession Of A Young Mistress ( Night 3)
Sitting on my terrace gazing towards the sun filled skies
The breeze begins to play a game with many stands of my hair
Today was a good day
I walk back inside my apartment
Surrounded by your gifts
Flowers, candies and much more
My late night adventures with you have turned out to be more of a fairy tale
5 star restaurants
Expensive evening gowns
To you money spent on such a hard working woman like me is nothing
So I ask my dear
Why the fuck you with her?
That ring
Good god I see it again
As if it fucking mocks me grinning in the light
The band turns colors depending on what angle its in
The color green reflects on my face
Funny .....because I'm envious of it
That ring symbolizes everything that I hate about you
Every inch of hurt and pain forgotten
I await for it to fall off so that you and me can once again be fully together
Our souls have been reunited and now our heart are growing fonder by the second
If we do not make a choice now this will all end in one way
Me wanting to kill the bitch
I look at you from across the table
More handsome and spectacular than before
We touch hands and I fall deep into your eyes
Until my finger graze over it
That motherfucking ring.
The breeze begins to play a game with many stands of my hair
Today was a good day
I walk back inside my apartment
Surrounded by your gifts
Flowers, candies and much more
My late night adventures with you have turned out to be more of a fairy tale
5 star restaurants
Expensive evening gowns
To you money spent on such a hard working woman like me is nothing
So I ask my dear
Why the fuck you with her?
That ring
Good god I see it again
As if it fucking mocks me grinning in the light
The band turns colors depending on what angle its in
The color green reflects on my face
Funny .....because I'm envious of it
That ring symbolizes everything that I hate about you
Every inch of hurt and pain forgotten
I await for it to fall off so that you and me can once again be fully together
Our souls have been reunited and now our heart are growing fonder by the second
If we do not make a choice now this will all end in one way
Me wanting to kill the bitch
I look at you from across the table
More handsome and spectacular than before
We touch hands and I fall deep into your eyes
Until my finger graze over it
That motherfucking ring.
Confession Of A Young Mistress ( Night 2)
His fingers ran across my spine
In the nude we laid face to face
Caressing and holding each other like newly weds
Funny.....because he was one...
We looking in each others eyes and smiled
As the glare from the TV was the only light in the room reflecting off our bodies
His lips grazed my warm flesh slowly
My body slowly turning into putty
A hand slid down to meet his manhood and began to stroke
A soft groan and a smile came across his face
Lips met and tongues clashed
Fingers were inserted
Hips wiggled and grind
Positions were then switched and the real show began
Breast jumped and things shook
Love slaps could be heard beyond the door
Sheets were ruffled and covers thrown to the floor
Backs arched and eyes roll
Dirty talk was heard and enjoyed
Over and over we enjoyed this hotel suite
The finale ended with peaks hit at the same time
Heart rates slowed down
Sweat began to settle
And that wedding ring was still on.
Fuck.
In the nude we laid face to face
Caressing and holding each other like newly weds
Funny.....because he was one...
We looking in each others eyes and smiled
As the glare from the TV was the only light in the room reflecting off our bodies
His lips grazed my warm flesh slowly
My body slowly turning into putty
A hand slid down to meet his manhood and began to stroke
A soft groan and a smile came across his face
Lips met and tongues clashed
Fingers were inserted
Hips wiggled and grind
Positions were then switched and the real show began
Breast jumped and things shook
Love slaps could be heard beyond the door
Sheets were ruffled and covers thrown to the floor
Backs arched and eyes roll
Dirty talk was heard and enjoyed
Over and over we enjoyed this hotel suite
The finale ended with peaks hit at the same time
Heart rates slowed down
Sweat began to settle
And that wedding ring was still on.
Fuck.
"Confession Of A Young Mistress ( Night 1)"
The sweet taste of your lips invade my idle thoughts
Stroking them with flashes , memories of past encounters
involving my flesh and your's romancing each other equally
Never can I forget what we were.....
No encounter after will wash away the sins thats me and you will create and perform
Over and over, continuously intaking more of each other's lust
Warping this lust into beautiful portraits
Our choice of paint shall consist of emotions, desires and a touch of deceit
How could we not indulge into each others souls?
Taking just a mere nibble would only cause more hunger
And I my dear, will refuse to grab a snickers and wait while my hunger for your body festers inside me
Give it to me
A single command will activate my body
Without a care the clothes will yet again shed for you
As if we never missed a beat in out up tempo love track
The hook may have faded but the bassline continued to bump
carrying on this song even through your wedding day
Unknowingly we had more vocals to add to the track
There were many more O's and Ah's, grunts and groans
The beat from this head board will echo through these walls
And the act of adultery will be committed
We will watch as the morning sun rise and peeks through these curtains
Shining on your weeding ring that was cast to the carpet floor
In the form of our clothes bedside in a heap
And the title of a mistress I gained.
Till next time my love.
Stroking them with flashes , memories of past encounters
involving my flesh and your's romancing each other equally
Never can I forget what we were.....
No encounter after will wash away the sins thats me and you will create and perform
Over and over, continuously intaking more of each other's lust
Warping this lust into beautiful portraits
Our choice of paint shall consist of emotions, desires and a touch of deceit
How could we not indulge into each others souls?
Taking just a mere nibble would only cause more hunger
And I my dear, will refuse to grab a snickers and wait while my hunger for your body festers inside me
Give it to me
A single command will activate my body
Without a care the clothes will yet again shed for you
As if we never missed a beat in out up tempo love track
The hook may have faded but the bassline continued to bump
carrying on this song even through your wedding day
Unknowingly we had more vocals to add to the track
There were many more O's and Ah's, grunts and groans
The beat from this head board will echo through these walls
And the act of adultery will be committed
We will watch as the morning sun rise and peeks through these curtains
Shining on your weeding ring that was cast to the carpet floor
In the form of our clothes bedside in a heap
And the title of a mistress I gained.
Till next time my love.
The Married Dude
Why....why do you haunt me?
Your lips and touch fucking glide through my head.
Stimulating my mind and drip off of my thoughts.
You...you fucking annoy me with your request to be a good girl.
How can I be? How can I lay with you and not touch you...not kiss you..not...man...just not.
It's as if you wanna just see how far I would go in the moment....turn my back against God.
Throw away my beliefs?
For you I think I would.
The love that we had is still stained on my heart and even thought my mind is fighting...this time.
This one time..
my heart is putting up a fight not even God can come between.
A love like this should never exist. and it won't
For as long as you have a ring on ya finger....I will never put myself close to you.
Never.
Your lips and touch fucking glide through my head.
Stimulating my mind and drip off of my thoughts.
You...you fucking annoy me with your request to be a good girl.
How can I be? How can I lay with you and not touch you...not kiss you..not...man...just not.
It's as if you wanna just see how far I would go in the moment....turn my back against God.
Throw away my beliefs?
For you I think I would.
The love that we had is still stained on my heart and even thought my mind is fighting...this time.
This one time..
my heart is putting up a fight not even God can come between.
A love like this should never exist. and it won't
For as long as you have a ring on ya finger....I will never put myself close to you.
Never.
5 Year Plan
Being at the age I am now I think about a lot of things.
Life....having kids...making sure that when all the money go away I have someone to come home to.
My fear: That by the time this dream should become a reality I will have no one there for me.
Funny thing...Leo talked about this with me tonight.
He spoke of this same fear and why he was busting his ass now to get things in order.
I just wonder.....why is he one of the rare males who think like this?
I know about a good 40 males in total who are of the ages 21-30 and most of them can't figure out what they are going to do in 5 years.
A 5 year plan. I think any Black man who would want to make it would have to have a 5 year plan.
Sadly....how many men do you know with a plan at all.
I say 1.
Life....having kids...making sure that when all the money go away I have someone to come home to.
My fear: That by the time this dream should become a reality I will have no one there for me.
Funny thing...Leo talked about this with me tonight.
He spoke of this same fear and why he was busting his ass now to get things in order.
I just wonder.....why is he one of the rare males who think like this?
I know about a good 40 males in total who are of the ages 21-30 and most of them can't figure out what they are going to do in 5 years.
A 5 year plan. I think any Black man who would want to make it would have to have a 5 year plan.
Sadly....how many men do you know with a plan at all.
I say 1.
His Suga Mama.
So just a hint as to why me and him is a WE.
Just read it.
Candice: Leo you are such a fucking potty mouth son.
Leo: How am I a potty mouth..just saying
Candice: lmbao....nawl I mean...
Candice: its funny how you can be so blunt with me and not worry as to what I would think...other niggas wouldn't even say half the ish you say...they to punk ass to do it
Leo: Lol mayne that's why every nucca is not leo...I like to be free..so ..they only reason I might not tell u what I want is if I feel that u can't handle it....or aint on da level wit u.....but u know aint no punk over here
Candice: shit I'm happy about that.
Candice: and I hope i'm on a level with you where youthink I can handle mostly anything coming from you.
Leo: I might have to train for da mami
Candice: well i'm willing to learn if you are ready to teach...I wonder why it took so long for you to be ready to teach though...or was I still levels behind?
Leo: Don't know can't dwell on da past..everything happen fo a reason
Candice: and with that said you gave me a very good answer
Candice: thankyou Leo
Candice: i'll give you something really good for that.
Candice:
Leo: What else can u gimme that I can't get outta of u..ur mouth..da tight 8months clog waitin to be unclog pussy...and luv..what else u got that I can't already get shawtie lol
Candice: some good food a back rub....hell a parade in some panties and a bra.
Candice: shit I would make up something to give you
Leo: Really damn damn damn..u trying to make a nucca hijack plane now lol
Candice:
Leo: U got my bail money
Candice: I'll be ya suga mama.
Candice: as long as you supply the suga
Leo: Lol what kind of suga we talkin about
Candice: take off them clothes and find out
Leo: Hmmmmmm takin notes
Candice: dont take notes....take off the clothes Leo. I'm waiting for my suga!
Leo: Well cum get it
Candice: I'm off at 6 on Sat a bus to CT take 2 hours and 10 dollar address please
Candice: cuz i dont think I'm waiting until you comeback to NY next week
That's what it is.
Hold that son.
Run Fat Bitch Run
So...I'm walking up towards Flatbush Ave...trying to get a dollar van to go Downtown and this all familiar car speeds right in front of me and damn there knocks me over. Now many of the same cars are owned by Black men so I didn't think to look at first....until...
Hold up is that?
My bestfriends ex....and as I cross the street he watches me close.
Next thing I know it he makes a u turn to my side of the street glares toward me and drive a bit up. Stops and then looks at me in the rear view.
I mean I'm over here about to get killed cuz of my best buds ole emotional ass.
I tell this bitch th story and she laughs.
The fuck?!?
Now my fat ass gotta be running away from deranged stalker ass niggas she got.
Man i be motherfucking damned this shit happens again.
I hate this bitch.
Hold up is that?
My bestfriends ex....and as I cross the street he watches me close.
Next thing I know it he makes a u turn to my side of the street glares toward me and drive a bit up. Stops and then looks at me in the rear view.
I mean I'm over here about to get killed cuz of my best buds ole emotional ass.
I tell this bitch th story and she laughs.
The fuck?!?
Now my fat ass gotta be running away from deranged stalker ass niggas she got.
Man i be motherfucking damned this shit happens again.
I hate this bitch.
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