I got my mojo back. :)
Lights are off and the mood set
Jill faintly playing in the background
Our favorite tunes
The moment has finally arrived for you and I to
Enjoy each others intimate company for the first time
So I undress
S
L
O
W
L
Y
While you watch the candlelight glow
Off my skin
Yes dear I'm ready to
Become an us
Beyond the lust
Be your lady
No one else standing here but me and you
So tell me what would you like for me to do
The aroma from your skin casting a spell
On my heart for I'm at your every beckon call
So do as you please with my body laid before you yearning
Just for your touch
Your eyes sliding down my curvy silhouette
Ignites me more to please you
You place a single finger over my lips
As love flushed over my soul
Instructing me to relax
For pleasing me
Will please you more than anything on Earth
And like a real lover you choose to take the time
Examine
And inhale my physical features before
You ravish my love down under like a beast on a feast
My eyes are dreamy like as you proceed over me
Leaning in closer
The sweet feel of your breath has been felt for the first time
As I lay back and close my eyes
Ready to fall into this world with you
My lips part by eager fingers
And the first kiss has been made
I
E
X
H
A
L
E
Because you have taken my breath away for the first time
And I know
It will not be the last
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Friday, November 23, 2007
Within My Deepest Thoughts
Not a poem but a thought I wanted to share.
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We stand up for what we believe in
Yet like toy soldiers we get
Hurt
Burned
Left on this battle field of love to just drag our slumped bodies
Across to a safe spot to gain a second of thought
Before being attacked again by
Feeling, emotions, drama, haters
Man we surely go through it all as women
Stand here on the front lines like always
I'm fighting... but sometimes I wonder
What the fuck for?
If I'm not fighting for myself then why for another in the heat of the night
Tears and pain felt for too many nights
Too many problems randomly popping up
And I have no way to control them
Looked around many bodies are littered across the vast field of doom
With labels of how they fell to their demise
Love , lust,depression
You name it and a woman has died for it
And like the Queens we are
We stand next to our Kings tall
Head strong because without us there will be no them
But what happens when he disappears in the middle of the quest for happiness
We are then forced to:
Struggle with children created by abandoned sperm donors
Forced to act out of our character and do things God never intended us to do
Work two jobs and balance a check book
Play Mother and Father and support ourselves emotionally
Just to survive alone in this world
And I cannot wake another day with this heavy hearted bullshit
I wanna rise
Rise above all the bullshit and drama that we face everyday
Ladies I'm feeling like Mary right now
Just broken again and wounded
But yet even in my darkest hour I wanna rise
Even in my slow demise I want you to rise with me
So let's walk together and then maybe
For a change
We can overcome the war.
Laters.
Monday, November 12, 2007
Madness *Roundabout Smiley*
Madness.
This weekend I learned more about some people than I thought I ever would.
You ever stop talking to someone like...ina friendly flirty.." this could be something" type way and feel like you breaking up with someone? I mean my gosh...I felt like that. It's was like weird. But I think everything is fine now...I guess the shock of me pulling away so fast is what got him. He will be a okay.....I hope and pray. I still got love for him doe. Suddenly around the time I'm pulling away from someone guess who pops up and just steals me to the side. Yups...him. lol. I mean.....after all this time he is like all about me. WTF? lol. This shit wasn't planned but homie thought I was pulling away for the next cat. it was more like I was pulling away because I'm not sure what to think of him. I had a funny feeling he was trying to hard to just please me. Like force me to think everything is on the up and up. Well why would you have to if everything is? Why force something that should already be natural? Every heard of being to perfect? Seems too good to be true? Yeah I now know what people mean by that. It's not like i didn't like him as a person I did alot...but its all to fast for me..slow down...stop pushing...man alot of yall know how I am. I told him and gave him clues but....he dun wan hear it...thinking I'm being icey and ish. I'm left to wonder why men are after me and what are they after. Well...I think that for all except one.
He just...wanted a friend you know...he just got through a hard relationship and was a poet. So me and X both knew him from when he joined. That was like 8 months ago. Now 8 months later something...is brewing between us. I'm not sure what it is but it's cool because no walls are up.
See I found out something about me....if I think it's game...walls jump up high. But if a man come at me with no agenda...walls stay down. Me and him never thought about each other like this and now suddenly its like....o wowzers. He called me these cute lil pet names today and i damn there fell out my chair hit the floor and died. Who would have seen this wild shit? I'm finding out so much more about him it's crazy. I guess slow and steady wins the race. He didn't come at me with the omg you so pretty ma why you single...he just came to me broken and his words just had me like damn..this dude is in some pain. Friend for like a min...even through his whole battle with his..."chick". I was hurt cuz I didn't know till he told me but as a friend I'm like well shit that don't change shit. I guess I must have made the right move because months later they parted ways and now he's checking for me and I'm checking for him. Gosh. What the fuck is going on? Am I feeling someone? Could this be after months of staying to myself that someone...indeed snuck the fuck in without me looking and got me in a big ole hug? I'm not sure what to say guys...I think I have a crush.
*blankface* man this is just wild for me.
This weekend I learned more about some people than I thought I ever would.
You ever stop talking to someone like...ina friendly flirty.." this could be something" type way and feel like you breaking up with someone? I mean my gosh...I felt like that. It's was like weird. But I think everything is fine now...I guess the shock of me pulling away so fast is what got him. He will be a okay.....I hope and pray. I still got love for him doe. Suddenly around the time I'm pulling away from someone guess who pops up and just steals me to the side. Yups...him. lol. I mean.....after all this time he is like all about me. WTF? lol. This shit wasn't planned but homie thought I was pulling away for the next cat. it was more like I was pulling away because I'm not sure what to think of him. I had a funny feeling he was trying to hard to just please me. Like force me to think everything is on the up and up. Well why would you have to if everything is? Why force something that should already be natural? Every heard of being to perfect? Seems too good to be true? Yeah I now know what people mean by that. It's not like i didn't like him as a person I did alot...but its all to fast for me..slow down...stop pushing...man alot of yall know how I am. I told him and gave him clues but....he dun wan hear it...thinking I'm being icey and ish. I'm left to wonder why men are after me and what are they after. Well...I think that for all except one.
He just...wanted a friend you know...he just got through a hard relationship and was a poet. So me and X both knew him from when he joined. That was like 8 months ago. Now 8 months later something...is brewing between us. I'm not sure what it is but it's cool because no walls are up.
See I found out something about me....if I think it's game...walls jump up high. But if a man come at me with no agenda...walls stay down. Me and him never thought about each other like this and now suddenly its like....o wowzers. He called me these cute lil pet names today and i damn there fell out my chair hit the floor and died. Who would have seen this wild shit? I'm finding out so much more about him it's crazy. I guess slow and steady wins the race. He didn't come at me with the omg you so pretty ma why you single...he just came to me broken and his words just had me like damn..this dude is in some pain. Friend for like a min...even through his whole battle with his..."chick". I was hurt cuz I didn't know till he told me but as a friend I'm like well shit that don't change shit. I guess I must have made the right move because months later they parted ways and now he's checking for me and I'm checking for him. Gosh. What the fuck is going on? Am I feeling someone? Could this be after months of staying to myself that someone...indeed snuck the fuck in without me looking and got me in a big ole hug? I'm not sure what to say guys...I think I have a crush.
*blankface* man this is just wild for me.
Monday, November 5, 2007
I Woke Up Today And Thought About....
I woke up today...just to notice..you were no longer there.
Damn.
I mean to just know that you are no where around anymore kinda got me in a slump. Kinda like...messed up and shit. I mean remember the days we would wake up with each other and toss a pillow or two. Blah. Let me stop thinking about you.
So on the the next person to think about. Why did we drift apart YET AGAIN? lol. It's as if we have a 4 months life span. We talk we giggle we get back to where we were last time...and then...we you go handle your life biz and I'm left behind to just wonder yet again....why? It's one of the great wonders in my life. You know I'm talking about ya ass too shawty.
Then he...came to mind..him.
The one who took my heart and shattered it to bits.
Son of a fucking bitch I fucking hate you so much ...so why do I want you near?
I mean I've NEVER had it that bad. Like I hate this dude...I really do...but I fucking love him so much I just want him to hold me and drift of to sleep in his arms. But he can't do that.
Why? Well lets just say another bitch is there in that spot I want. Nawl let me not talk about this anymore.
Then you came to mind and I was lost as to why? Nigga I dunno you like that. I wondered why would all of the past words be so hard to say to you. Why was ALL OF THAT needed? hmmmm.. I dunno how o call this one so i'll just sit back and chill on that note.
And after these thoughts escaped my head.....
I went to go brush my teeth.
Damn.
I mean to just know that you are no where around anymore kinda got me in a slump. Kinda like...messed up and shit. I mean remember the days we would wake up with each other and toss a pillow or two. Blah. Let me stop thinking about you.
So on the the next person to think about. Why did we drift apart YET AGAIN? lol. It's as if we have a 4 months life span. We talk we giggle we get back to where we were last time...and then...we you go handle your life biz and I'm left behind to just wonder yet again....why? It's one of the great wonders in my life. You know I'm talking about ya ass too shawty.
Then he...came to mind..him.
The one who took my heart and shattered it to bits.
Son of a fucking bitch I fucking hate you so much ...so why do I want you near?
I mean I've NEVER had it that bad. Like I hate this dude...I really do...but I fucking love him so much I just want him to hold me and drift of to sleep in his arms. But he can't do that.
Why? Well lets just say another bitch is there in that spot I want. Nawl let me not talk about this anymore.
Then you came to mind and I was lost as to why? Nigga I dunno you like that. I wondered why would all of the past words be so hard to say to you. Why was ALL OF THAT needed? hmmmm.. I dunno how o call this one so i'll just sit back and chill on that note.
And after these thoughts escaped my head.....
I went to go brush my teeth.
Censor Me Not
You see.....I have this..way about me.
I'm a lil rude at times...well more than normal.
I tend to not give a fuck for all the right reasons.
But its seems as if when people do hear what I have to say.....
ATTACK!
It's like people hang onto my every word...well every others...and never see the whole point to something I said.
But when I get defensive and make a good point and counter attack the attacks on my views....
It becomes a general discussion.
GET THE MOTHERFUCKING GUNS ON THAT SON!
Like..people...(and this goes out to everyone that has read this and got mad and all this other ish with me not just on person cause lord knows you are not the only one who came at me like that) get a grip.
Please I mean damn if I struck a personally nerve say so.
Just tell me you didn't like it and I will attempt to make sure you understand...I mean no harm.
I'm just speaking my mind and hell if the beef isn't with me.
Don't bring it my way.
K?
Thanks boo.
I'm a lil rude at times...well more than normal.
I tend to not give a fuck for all the right reasons.
But its seems as if when people do hear what I have to say.....
ATTACK!
It's like people hang onto my every word...well every others...and never see the whole point to something I said.
But when I get defensive and make a good point and counter attack the attacks on my views....
It becomes a general discussion.
GET THE MOTHERFUCKING GUNS ON THAT SON!
Like..people...(and this goes out to everyone that has read this and got mad and all this other ish with me not just on person cause lord knows you are not the only one who came at me like that) get a grip.
Please I mean damn if I struck a personally nerve say so.
Just tell me you didn't like it and I will attempt to make sure you understand...I mean no harm.
I'm just speaking my mind and hell if the beef isn't with me.
Don't bring it my way.
K?
Thanks boo.
If Only You Would Take A Second
Well I see you have made it here. Grand of you to join my thoughts.
Well let me get on with the show.
So my current views on myself have changed a bit since I was in high school.
I always thought of myself as some weird lost child with a fucked soul.
I now think..I'm a weird lost woman with a fucked soul but a good outlook on life.
See...me I'm a complex. And yes EVERYONE SAYS THAT SHIT ABOUT THEMSELVES ONLINE TO LOOK COOL AND SHIT....
but.....
I mean I'm the type of girl who would one day be head over heels in love with you and next...well you are lucky to get a hello out of me. I'm off and on like a light switch. I don't love my mother...I think she was only good for one thing in life and thats having me. My father...well as of late he hasn't proved a thing to me other than he looks out for self and "always" knows best for self.
I really can't blame them for their actions anymore due to the fact that the are cut from the same cloth. I guess I'm just that fucked child that got to caught in the middle.
Then there is my sis.
I love her but she doesn't know that. We fuss, we fight and go months without talking. Reason..we are kinda the same person...just she's more cold than me. She's determined to not let the actions of our parents fuck her over like me. I'm just glad that I was there to block some of the blows to her young mind. Sorry I wasn't there for all though. I know it hurt her but shit look at her now. In school far away and gaining a life for herself. In about 5 years she will have it all.
What about me?
Blah. I don't even know whats to come for me. I can only take it a day at a time.
My life is just...crazy.
No one knows anything because I don't like to talk about it. I've wrapped myself in myself so much I don't talk until I'm about to break down yet again.
And this time I don't have weed to turn to. Haunted by my past so much that at might I stay awake and read online articles.
Enough of this chit chatter.
It's depressing.
Well let me get on with the show.
So my current views on myself have changed a bit since I was in high school.
I always thought of myself as some weird lost child with a fucked soul.
I now think..I'm a weird lost woman with a fucked soul but a good outlook on life.
See...me I'm a complex. And yes EVERYONE SAYS THAT SHIT ABOUT THEMSELVES ONLINE TO LOOK COOL AND SHIT....
but.....
I mean I'm the type of girl who would one day be head over heels in love with you and next...well you are lucky to get a hello out of me. I'm off and on like a light switch. I don't love my mother...I think she was only good for one thing in life and thats having me. My father...well as of late he hasn't proved a thing to me other than he looks out for self and "always" knows best for self.
I really can't blame them for their actions anymore due to the fact that the are cut from the same cloth. I guess I'm just that fucked child that got to caught in the middle.
Then there is my sis.
I love her but she doesn't know that. We fuss, we fight and go months without talking. Reason..we are kinda the same person...just she's more cold than me. She's determined to not let the actions of our parents fuck her over like me. I'm just glad that I was there to block some of the blows to her young mind. Sorry I wasn't there for all though. I know it hurt her but shit look at her now. In school far away and gaining a life for herself. In about 5 years she will have it all.
What about me?
Blah. I don't even know whats to come for me. I can only take it a day at a time.
My life is just...crazy.
No one knows anything because I don't like to talk about it. I've wrapped myself in myself so much I don't talk until I'm about to break down yet again.
And this time I don't have weed to turn to. Haunted by my past so much that at might I stay awake and read online articles.
Enough of this chit chatter.
It's depressing.
Sunday, November 4, 2007
You Are Beautiful (So Beautiful)
Written to uplift any man with a broken heart.
A write for him.
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Beautiful
Damn have you ever looked at yourself in the mirror
Notice that the man that stands in it is something to behold
Something like fine wine getting better and better with time
Physically and mentally growing into something beyond normal comprehension
Dear has anyone ever told you that you were beautiful?
I'm mean I know I'm just another lady that has came your way
Seems like the conversations has me on another level thought swimming
Moments like this Hallmark don't even have a card for
Trying to tell you that you are worth more than the softest gold piece
My diamond in the rough
But the hurt in your heart shows across that lovely face
And I just want you to know that no matter you may think
You are indeed
Beautiful
See the stride of your walk is simply amazing
Gracing me with your presence and the scent of your skin causes me to just
Inhale your royal features because my dear you are a King in these eyes
And that's the best way I can describe your chocolate skin tone
And perfect smiles that flash across the most lovely set of lips I've ever seen
Baby...my dear...do you know that you are beautiful?
Not only body but in mind the vast knowledge you have obtained
Set me on fire, schooling me everyday
Giving me thoughts to hold until the next time we converse
Stimulating me the way that no other could
In my dreams you creep and you voice help me dream
Of a day when you will share your royal land with me
Because my dear next to you I feel like a peasant
Not worthy to even look into your eyes
You are just that beautiful to me
And no matter how much I write and try to show you
How much you would mean to me if given just a chance
The words of a million men and woman couldn't even express
The way that you just simply move me my Ebony king
And down and out you are now but please fear nothing for now on
Because you are beautiful to me
You are beautiful to me.
I Want A Hood Nigga
Nice guys. They are nice.
And they are moody also....a lil soft for my taste. I need an edge.
Why?
Think about it...I'm that chick that will walk behind a bitch and say she got a fat ass.
Same chick that will grab her pussy and say suck me dick.
What a nice dude doing with a chick like me? Can't handle me being soft and shit.
I'm not asking for no Ike Turner ass nigga. I'm asking for a nigga that can look good in some Timbs and a white tee...then can look good in a suit.
DAMN!
Tat's on his body, swagger in his step, a brain filled with correct info and a plan ( a working and good plan).
Yeah smoke a blunt every now and then....good dick to go along with it.
I'm going back to my hood niggas. lol.
I had about 2 so I guess I should hurry up and find him huh?
Yeah...a hood nigga.
Like I wanna walk up the block and bitches hate cuz my nigga so gully and I'm riding that dick.
I don't need some fine ass thug...just a nigga with that edge I drool over.
Nice guys step aside.
Hold up. After a convo let me make this clear.
I'm not asking for a thug. A thug is a mush brained asshole who don't know they ass from they elbow.
Nit what I'm looking for.
Just a man with a good edge tahts good in bed.
Outro.
And they are moody also....a lil soft for my taste. I need an edge.
Why?
Think about it...I'm that chick that will walk behind a bitch and say she got a fat ass.
Same chick that will grab her pussy and say suck me dick.
What a nice dude doing with a chick like me? Can't handle me being soft and shit.
I'm not asking for no Ike Turner ass nigga. I'm asking for a nigga that can look good in some Timbs and a white tee...then can look good in a suit.
DAMN!
Tat's on his body, swagger in his step, a brain filled with correct info and a plan ( a working and good plan).
Yeah smoke a blunt every now and then....good dick to go along with it.
I'm going back to my hood niggas. lol.
I had about 2 so I guess I should hurry up and find him huh?
Yeah...a hood nigga.
Like I wanna walk up the block and bitches hate cuz my nigga so gully and I'm riding that dick.
I don't need some fine ass thug...just a nigga with that edge I drool over.
Nice guys step aside.
Hold up. After a convo let me make this clear.
I'm not asking for a thug. A thug is a mush brained asshole who don't know they ass from they elbow.
Nit what I'm looking for.
Just a man with a good edge tahts good in bed.
Outro.
Updates.
So me and he that was a we....
Done.
Feel out of touch and things changed.
I mean right now I'm at a time and point in life where I don't care anymore. Like I couldn't see myself getting all goo goo eyed over a dude because its not something that I want. There are people that are trying to get to know me. Trying to figure me out. Damn I'm so used to being alone that I just tend to wanna be alone. I want love. I want all the good things that it could bring..but why should I waste time with it? It's just not worth it in the end.
Meanwhile i have dumped myself into a sea of my own words. It's pretty cool how much i'm learning about myself through my own writes. Pushing limits and trying to really get better as a poet. Life...is still life for me people.
Done.
Feel out of touch and things changed.
I mean right now I'm at a time and point in life where I don't care anymore. Like I couldn't see myself getting all goo goo eyed over a dude because its not something that I want. There are people that are trying to get to know me. Trying to figure me out. Damn I'm so used to being alone that I just tend to wanna be alone. I want love. I want all the good things that it could bring..but why should I waste time with it? It's just not worth it in the end.
Meanwhile i have dumped myself into a sea of my own words. It's pretty cool how much i'm learning about myself through my own writes. Pushing limits and trying to really get better as a poet. Life...is still life for me people.
Friday, September 21, 2007
The Candice Rulebook.
This bitch.
I'm like
"Ayo son...what should I write about tonight?"
"How I date nice and successful guys"
"Bitch...them niggas end up bitches or some lame with money...talk no action"
"Atleast they have money. You date broke people"
"Leo not broke doe"
"99 pecent were broke"
"Atleast they had character"
Now...how are we best buds?
Crazy how I think of a man's personality before anything else.
Crazy how in many cases I've been the one to walk away thought.
is there every a day where I'm the one being walked out on.
The answer is yes.
The key to Candice isn't a hard one.
But it seems many fail.
1...be real to me and I will be real to you
2 talk to me about anything
3 your humor is what got me .....keep it
4 becoming a new person will make me walk away
5 never....ever...stand down on something you should stand up for
6 do not play dumb when you KNOW what it is
these are the basic things I need from a man.
Why can't you men get it right?
I'm like
"Ayo son...what should I write about tonight?"
"How I date nice and successful guys"
"Bitch...them niggas end up bitches or some lame with money...talk no action"
"Atleast they have money. You date broke people"
"Leo not broke doe"
"99 pecent were broke"
"Atleast they had character"
Now...how are we best buds?
Crazy how I think of a man's personality before anything else.
Crazy how in many cases I've been the one to walk away thought.
is there every a day where I'm the one being walked out on.
The answer is yes.
The key to Candice isn't a hard one.
But it seems many fail.
1...be real to me and I will be real to you
2 talk to me about anything
3 your humor is what got me .....keep it
4 becoming a new person will make me walk away
5 never....ever...stand down on something you should stand up for
6 do not play dumb when you KNOW what it is
these are the basic things I need from a man.
Why can't you men get it right?
I Fucking Hate You
Now.
To really be blunt.
I fucking hate your guts right about now.
Al I did was show you attention...and tried to be there for you.
I know I'm not an easy woman.....but the shit you did was foul and we all know that.
But after it...you acted as if it was nothing to you.
Not a fight outta you...nothing.
I gave hope into something that was never to even be thought of...and had it handed back into my face.
You fucking stupid cunt.
I pray you erase my number and any other memory of me...because I really hope those bitches you wanna tell the same story to...will get lost into it and fall on they as.
You were right...you could never be happy.
Why?
Because you don't know how to keep a good thing until it's gone.
Maybe if I was someone else .....I would have recieved text...email...phone calls and all....but I guess I'm not her huh?
Fuck you and die.
I really would like you to finally succeed at taking your own life this time.
Now....you fucked up.
To really be blunt.
I fucking hate your guts right about now.
Al I did was show you attention...and tried to be there for you.
I know I'm not an easy woman.....but the shit you did was foul and we all know that.
But after it...you acted as if it was nothing to you.
Not a fight outta you...nothing.
I gave hope into something that was never to even be thought of...and had it handed back into my face.
You fucking stupid cunt.
I pray you erase my number and any other memory of me...because I really hope those bitches you wanna tell the same story to...will get lost into it and fall on they as.
You were right...you could never be happy.
Why?
Because you don't know how to keep a good thing until it's gone.
Maybe if I was someone else .....I would have recieved text...email...phone calls and all....but I guess I'm not her huh?
Fuck you and die.
I really would like you to finally succeed at taking your own life this time.
Now....you fucked up.
The Downfall Of My Addiction
I've been using this drug for months
And now no effect
No change
No happiness
No joy
Just empty thoughts and harsh reality
Something isn't right.....
Now thinking that it was a faze I upped the dosage
Took mass amounts with one swallow
I was brave
Yet not a single ounce of escape for me
Dear lord what the hell have I done
I look in the mirror and can't tell who it is
Cleaned the mirror and still can barely find myself
Bags under my eyes
Hair is unmade
And my only thought is for another hit
Just a touch off that good ish
That overseas right to my door hit a chick in the head and see stars type ish
I begin to tear through the house
Looking for something to give in exchange for you
Old photos of us smiling
Teddy bears you won for me
A movie stub from the first date
The blood soaked t-shit from when you struck me down
The condom you used on that girl last night
I forgive you baby
where the hell will I find another supplier?
When will I feel once again?
Just give me a damn hit
Please
Just another hit
And now no effect
No change
No happiness
No joy
Just empty thoughts and harsh reality
Something isn't right.....
Now thinking that it was a faze I upped the dosage
Took mass amounts with one swallow
I was brave
Yet not a single ounce of escape for me
Dear lord what the hell have I done
I look in the mirror and can't tell who it is
Cleaned the mirror and still can barely find myself
Bags under my eyes
Hair is unmade
And my only thought is for another hit
Just a touch off that good ish
That overseas right to my door hit a chick in the head and see stars type ish
I begin to tear through the house
Looking for something to give in exchange for you
Old photos of us smiling
Teddy bears you won for me
A movie stub from the first date
The blood soaked t-shit from when you struck me down
The condom you used on that girl last night
I forgive you baby
where the hell will I find another supplier?
When will I feel once again?
Just give me a damn hit
Please
Just another hit
Confession Of A Cheating Husband ( Night 2)
Her soft hands engulfed into mine
Naked laying face to face
Touching her body as if it was (HERS)
Na this is isn't (HER) body
And thats the reason why I'm treating this one so nice
A movie playing in the distance but we are not watching it
We are about to star in our on script
My lips toured all over her breast
Her hands grabbing my erection
I forgot how she does that
Damn
Come back to earth and handle her
Legs spread
Her moans growing louder
My named called
As hips were gripped
Ass was slapped
She begged for me
More.
Back was scratched
Evidence was left
Who cares.
She rode the waves of her desire
And I sat back and enjoyed the ride
Pre cum made
And kitten was still at it
Phone call missed.
Now the finale
Clit danced against my lips
Insert it because I'm about to blow
Operation complete
Pussy dismantled because she has that all familiar grin
Her hair tossed around
Phone call missed again.
And her eyes then seen it again
The promise made before God.
Damn.
Naked laying face to face
Touching her body as if it was (HERS)
Na this is isn't (HER) body
And thats the reason why I'm treating this one so nice
A movie playing in the distance but we are not watching it
We are about to star in our on script
My lips toured all over her breast
Her hands grabbing my erection
I forgot how she does that
Damn
Come back to earth and handle her
Legs spread
Her moans growing louder
My named called
As hips were gripped
Ass was slapped
She begged for me
More.
Back was scratched
Evidence was left
Who cares.
She rode the waves of her desire
And I sat back and enjoyed the ride
Pre cum made
And kitten was still at it
Phone call missed.
Now the finale
Clit danced against my lips
Insert it because I'm about to blow
Operation complete
Pussy dismantled because she has that all familiar grin
Her hair tossed around
Phone call missed again.
And her eyes then seen it again
The promise made before God.
Damn.
Confession Of A Cheating Husband ( Night 1)
Her bright eyes invaded my dreams again
Once again awaking in my own sweat
Her giggles echoed through my chest
And my heart held onto the last kiss we shared
Never can I forget this dark beauty
No woman after will take control of this King
And turn him into the putty she can with one flick of her tongue
The flesh upon her frame is sweeter than the finest honey
For this woman was more than just another girl
How could I once again turn my back to her
And not let my hands slide down to embrace the small of her back
As I enter her from behind my kitten will purr for me yet again
And one commandment will be broken
Nervous
For she was the sun in my sky
The clouds would part like Moses did the sea
And just like he did she walked right into my life
Yet again
Those round hips and soft lips called me
This young beauty was more than full grown
She was the WIFE
The wife that was not ready
Enough about that past because before my eyes
Lay my young beauty , the future holds a certain place for her
I shall lay my body upon her and we will make love over and over
Her round ass in the air and my mouth searching for her pleasure zone
Take me all dear like the stallion you were built after
I expect nothing less than an all star performance from such a star that has keep me tossing and turning all these long nights
And when the sun rise and the rays touch down on this carpet floor
It will reveal that my marriage no long consist of a we
It will become me, her and you
My true love
Once again awaking in my own sweat
Her giggles echoed through my chest
And my heart held onto the last kiss we shared
Never can I forget this dark beauty
No woman after will take control of this King
And turn him into the putty she can with one flick of her tongue
The flesh upon her frame is sweeter than the finest honey
For this woman was more than just another girl
How could I once again turn my back to her
And not let my hands slide down to embrace the small of her back
As I enter her from behind my kitten will purr for me yet again
And one commandment will be broken
Nervous
For she was the sun in my sky
The clouds would part like Moses did the sea
And just like he did she walked right into my life
Yet again
Those round hips and soft lips called me
This young beauty was more than full grown
She was the WIFE
The wife that was not ready
Enough about that past because before my eyes
Lay my young beauty , the future holds a certain place for her
I shall lay my body upon her and we will make love over and over
Her round ass in the air and my mouth searching for her pleasure zone
Take me all dear like the stallion you were built after
I expect nothing less than an all star performance from such a star that has keep me tossing and turning all these long nights
And when the sun rise and the rays touch down on this carpet floor
It will reveal that my marriage no long consist of a we
It will become me, her and you
My true love
Confession Of A Young Mistress ( Night 3)
Sitting on my terrace gazing towards the sun filled skies
The breeze begins to play a game with many stands of my hair
Today was a good day
I walk back inside my apartment
Surrounded by your gifts
Flowers, candies and much more
My late night adventures with you have turned out to be more of a fairy tale
5 star restaurants
Expensive evening gowns
To you money spent on such a hard working woman like me is nothing
So I ask my dear
Why the fuck you with her?
That ring
Good god I see it again
As if it fucking mocks me grinning in the light
The band turns colors depending on what angle its in
The color green reflects on my face
Funny .....because I'm envious of it
That ring symbolizes everything that I hate about you
Every inch of hurt and pain forgotten
I await for it to fall off so that you and me can once again be fully together
Our souls have been reunited and now our heart are growing fonder by the second
If we do not make a choice now this will all end in one way
Me wanting to kill the bitch
I look at you from across the table
More handsome and spectacular than before
We touch hands and I fall deep into your eyes
Until my finger graze over it
That motherfucking ring.
The breeze begins to play a game with many stands of my hair
Today was a good day
I walk back inside my apartment
Surrounded by your gifts
Flowers, candies and much more
My late night adventures with you have turned out to be more of a fairy tale
5 star restaurants
Expensive evening gowns
To you money spent on such a hard working woman like me is nothing
So I ask my dear
Why the fuck you with her?
That ring
Good god I see it again
As if it fucking mocks me grinning in the light
The band turns colors depending on what angle its in
The color green reflects on my face
Funny .....because I'm envious of it
That ring symbolizes everything that I hate about you
Every inch of hurt and pain forgotten
I await for it to fall off so that you and me can once again be fully together
Our souls have been reunited and now our heart are growing fonder by the second
If we do not make a choice now this will all end in one way
Me wanting to kill the bitch
I look at you from across the table
More handsome and spectacular than before
We touch hands and I fall deep into your eyes
Until my finger graze over it
That motherfucking ring.
Confession Of A Young Mistress ( Night 2)
His fingers ran across my spine
In the nude we laid face to face
Caressing and holding each other like newly weds
Funny.....because he was one...
We looking in each others eyes and smiled
As the glare from the TV was the only light in the room reflecting off our bodies
His lips grazed my warm flesh slowly
My body slowly turning into putty
A hand slid down to meet his manhood and began to stroke
A soft groan and a smile came across his face
Lips met and tongues clashed
Fingers were inserted
Hips wiggled and grind
Positions were then switched and the real show began
Breast jumped and things shook
Love slaps could be heard beyond the door
Sheets were ruffled and covers thrown to the floor
Backs arched and eyes roll
Dirty talk was heard and enjoyed
Over and over we enjoyed this hotel suite
The finale ended with peaks hit at the same time
Heart rates slowed down
Sweat began to settle
And that wedding ring was still on.
Fuck.
In the nude we laid face to face
Caressing and holding each other like newly weds
Funny.....because he was one...
We looking in each others eyes and smiled
As the glare from the TV was the only light in the room reflecting off our bodies
His lips grazed my warm flesh slowly
My body slowly turning into putty
A hand slid down to meet his manhood and began to stroke
A soft groan and a smile came across his face
Lips met and tongues clashed
Fingers were inserted
Hips wiggled and grind
Positions were then switched and the real show began
Breast jumped and things shook
Love slaps could be heard beyond the door
Sheets were ruffled and covers thrown to the floor
Backs arched and eyes roll
Dirty talk was heard and enjoyed
Over and over we enjoyed this hotel suite
The finale ended with peaks hit at the same time
Heart rates slowed down
Sweat began to settle
And that wedding ring was still on.
Fuck.
"Confession Of A Young Mistress ( Night 1)"
The sweet taste of your lips invade my idle thoughts
Stroking them with flashes , memories of past encounters
involving my flesh and your's romancing each other equally
Never can I forget what we were.....
No encounter after will wash away the sins thats me and you will create and perform
Over and over, continuously intaking more of each other's lust
Warping this lust into beautiful portraits
Our choice of paint shall consist of emotions, desires and a touch of deceit
How could we not indulge into each others souls?
Taking just a mere nibble would only cause more hunger
And I my dear, will refuse to grab a snickers and wait while my hunger for your body festers inside me
Give it to me
A single command will activate my body
Without a care the clothes will yet again shed for you
As if we never missed a beat in out up tempo love track
The hook may have faded but the bassline continued to bump
carrying on this song even through your wedding day
Unknowingly we had more vocals to add to the track
There were many more O's and Ah's, grunts and groans
The beat from this head board will echo through these walls
And the act of adultery will be committed
We will watch as the morning sun rise and peeks through these curtains
Shining on your weeding ring that was cast to the carpet floor
In the form of our clothes bedside in a heap
And the title of a mistress I gained.
Till next time my love.
Stroking them with flashes , memories of past encounters
involving my flesh and your's romancing each other equally
Never can I forget what we were.....
No encounter after will wash away the sins thats me and you will create and perform
Over and over, continuously intaking more of each other's lust
Warping this lust into beautiful portraits
Our choice of paint shall consist of emotions, desires and a touch of deceit
How could we not indulge into each others souls?
Taking just a mere nibble would only cause more hunger
And I my dear, will refuse to grab a snickers and wait while my hunger for your body festers inside me
Give it to me
A single command will activate my body
Without a care the clothes will yet again shed for you
As if we never missed a beat in out up tempo love track
The hook may have faded but the bassline continued to bump
carrying on this song even through your wedding day
Unknowingly we had more vocals to add to the track
There were many more O's and Ah's, grunts and groans
The beat from this head board will echo through these walls
And the act of adultery will be committed
We will watch as the morning sun rise and peeks through these curtains
Shining on your weeding ring that was cast to the carpet floor
In the form of our clothes bedside in a heap
And the title of a mistress I gained.
Till next time my love.
The Married Dude
Why....why do you haunt me?
Your lips and touch fucking glide through my head.
Stimulating my mind and drip off of my thoughts.
You...you fucking annoy me with your request to be a good girl.
How can I be? How can I lay with you and not touch you...not kiss you..not...man...just not.
It's as if you wanna just see how far I would go in the moment....turn my back against God.
Throw away my beliefs?
For you I think I would.
The love that we had is still stained on my heart and even thought my mind is fighting...this time.
This one time..
my heart is putting up a fight not even God can come between.
A love like this should never exist. and it won't
For as long as you have a ring on ya finger....I will never put myself close to you.
Never.
Your lips and touch fucking glide through my head.
Stimulating my mind and drip off of my thoughts.
You...you fucking annoy me with your request to be a good girl.
How can I be? How can I lay with you and not touch you...not kiss you..not...man...just not.
It's as if you wanna just see how far I would go in the moment....turn my back against God.
Throw away my beliefs?
For you I think I would.
The love that we had is still stained on my heart and even thought my mind is fighting...this time.
This one time..
my heart is putting up a fight not even God can come between.
A love like this should never exist. and it won't
For as long as you have a ring on ya finger....I will never put myself close to you.
Never.
5 Year Plan
Being at the age I am now I think about a lot of things.
Life....having kids...making sure that when all the money go away I have someone to come home to.
My fear: That by the time this dream should become a reality I will have no one there for me.
Funny thing...Leo talked about this with me tonight.
He spoke of this same fear and why he was busting his ass now to get things in order.
I just wonder.....why is he one of the rare males who think like this?
I know about a good 40 males in total who are of the ages 21-30 and most of them can't figure out what they are going to do in 5 years.
A 5 year plan. I think any Black man who would want to make it would have to have a 5 year plan.
Sadly....how many men do you know with a plan at all.
I say 1.
Life....having kids...making sure that when all the money go away I have someone to come home to.
My fear: That by the time this dream should become a reality I will have no one there for me.
Funny thing...Leo talked about this with me tonight.
He spoke of this same fear and why he was busting his ass now to get things in order.
I just wonder.....why is he one of the rare males who think like this?
I know about a good 40 males in total who are of the ages 21-30 and most of them can't figure out what they are going to do in 5 years.
A 5 year plan. I think any Black man who would want to make it would have to have a 5 year plan.
Sadly....how many men do you know with a plan at all.
I say 1.
His Suga Mama.
So just a hint as to why me and him is a WE.
Just read it.
Candice: Leo you are such a fucking potty mouth son.
Leo: How am I a potty mouth..just saying
Candice: lmbao....nawl I mean...
Candice: its funny how you can be so blunt with me and not worry as to what I would think...other niggas wouldn't even say half the ish you say...they to punk ass to do it
Leo: Lol mayne that's why every nucca is not leo...I like to be free..so ..they only reason I might not tell u what I want is if I feel that u can't handle it....or aint on da level wit u.....but u know aint no punk over here
Candice: shit I'm happy about that.
Candice: and I hope i'm on a level with you where youthink I can handle mostly anything coming from you.
Leo: I might have to train for da mami
Candice: well i'm willing to learn if you are ready to teach...I wonder why it took so long for you to be ready to teach though...or was I still levels behind?
Leo: Don't know can't dwell on da past..everything happen fo a reason
Candice: and with that said you gave me a very good answer
Candice: thankyou Leo
Candice: i'll give you something really good for that.
Candice:
Leo: What else can u gimme that I can't get outta of u..ur mouth..da tight 8months clog waitin to be unclog pussy...and luv..what else u got that I can't already get shawtie lol
Candice: some good food a back rub....hell a parade in some panties and a bra.
Candice: shit I would make up something to give you
Leo: Really damn damn damn..u trying to make a nucca hijack plane now lol
Candice:
Leo: U got my bail money
Candice: I'll be ya suga mama.
Candice: as long as you supply the suga
Leo: Lol what kind of suga we talkin about
Candice: take off them clothes and find out
Leo: Hmmmmmm takin notes
Candice: dont take notes....take off the clothes Leo. I'm waiting for my suga!
Leo: Well cum get it
Candice: I'm off at 6 on Sat a bus to CT take 2 hours and 10 dollar address please
Candice: cuz i dont think I'm waiting until you comeback to NY next week
That's what it is.
Hold that son.
Run Fat Bitch Run
So...I'm walking up towards Flatbush Ave...trying to get a dollar van to go Downtown and this all familiar car speeds right in front of me and damn there knocks me over. Now many of the same cars are owned by Black men so I didn't think to look at first....until...
Hold up is that?
My bestfriends ex....and as I cross the street he watches me close.
Next thing I know it he makes a u turn to my side of the street glares toward me and drive a bit up. Stops and then looks at me in the rear view.
I mean I'm over here about to get killed cuz of my best buds ole emotional ass.
I tell this bitch th story and she laughs.
The fuck?!?
Now my fat ass gotta be running away from deranged stalker ass niggas she got.
Man i be motherfucking damned this shit happens again.
I hate this bitch.
Hold up is that?
My bestfriends ex....and as I cross the street he watches me close.
Next thing I know it he makes a u turn to my side of the street glares toward me and drive a bit up. Stops and then looks at me in the rear view.
I mean I'm over here about to get killed cuz of my best buds ole emotional ass.
I tell this bitch th story and she laughs.
The fuck?!?
Now my fat ass gotta be running away from deranged stalker ass niggas she got.
Man i be motherfucking damned this shit happens again.
I hate this bitch.
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